Battles

@rav3n she is heavily pregnant and still has work for the next 3 weeks so can't do anything and we have barely spoken for months now. I'm not great at keeping friends in the real world which is why I treasure the friends I have here and the one other friend I have online.

No it doesn't give the same satisfaction 😂. I mean there's some I enjoy doing and that I've done a couple of times.

@NightFury I'm glad you are taking it easy and giving Luna lots of pats and cuddles sounds perfect. I hope it's a restful night for you sweet, sending you hugs beautiful ❤️

@MissGremlin I have a job interview tomorrow for a position at the school I'm teaching in now, for next year.

I'm scared I'm not going to get it, because I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't. I've already failed at two job interviews for a job for next year.

@NightFury oh sweet, i hear your fear and it's completely valid especially with the uncertainty of what next year holds.

I really hope the interview goes well for you sweet, I'll be thinking of you and keeping everything crossed ❤️.

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@MissGremlin wrote:

@AuntGlow honestly wish I didn't have to adult even just for a day 😂.

In the real world i do alot for certain people but yet they are rude, disrespectful, unappreciative and show no compassion. It hurts and it's frustrating. I get harsh comments directed at me in relation to hurting myself, suggesting that I should do so (I'm safe, just making sure that's known).

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Hi queen!! I realised I haven't responded to this, I'm so sorry! 💖

This would be so, so vulnerable... and it really would be hurtful and frustrating. These kinds of comments are compeletely uncalled for and not okay. How are you feeling now?

Hello @AuntGlow, it's ok. I know things get busy.

Honestly I'm not feeling the best tonight, mentally I'm exhausted. There's quite alot happening at once and it's all just hitting really hard. I'm just sick of being hurt in so many different ways. (I'm safe). I'm doing my best to look after myself and try to make a better life for myself but it's just like one step forward and a million steps backwards. It's just super frustrating and disheartening.

That sounds really tough. 😔 @MissGremlin

I understand what you mean, when things keep feeling challenging, it really can be disheartening and frustrating...

Where do you notice things are feeling okay right now?

I am curious to see if we can build from that space? 🥰

@AuntGlow thinking about where things are ok is hard at the moment.

I'm not going to go into things tonight cos I'm already feeling a little too fragile and I don't want things to come rushing out. I'm safe but I just worry if I try to talk about things that I'll spiral quickly and I don't want that to happen.

I would like to try and build on things and find things that are ok but during the day time is easier and feels safer.

This is really wonderful self-awareness @MissGremlin, and a lovely practice at boundary-setting too.

Let's try again tomorrow. ☺️

For now, could Casper and Colouring be a good way to end your evening safely? 💖

@AuntGlow trying again tomorrow sounds like a good plan.

I haven't been interested in colouring. But I'm laying in my bed with Casper and I'm watching Buffy. Hoping I can fall asleep soon.