Battles

@MissGremlin aww hugs, my friend. Take care. Talk later.

@MissGremlin @NightFury @Ru-bee @Shaz51 @tyme

I am back from church choir. Being assertive with bigger personalities, who had previously been a tad rude. I am learning not to withdraw or isolate, but keeping active, vocal and social. The last 18 months have been a big social learning curve for me.

Had yum seafood salad. I can’t believe my son asked me to make one. Shows he has good taste. 🙏

Is it that psychologist/psychiatrist person who is the issue again @Appleblossom ?

No @tyme I have started a new psychologist who seems really lovely. My old psychiatrist is doing reasonably, so I am satisfied with my MH team.

It was about me learning to get along with and forgive big personalities in my church. One had criticised my clothing on a quiet rehearsal, when I first started playing the organ about 4 years ago, and also did some jeering about NDIS back then. No, not very Christian. I had been too trusting and vulnerable when I joined this church, but I now have learned to be bolshie and make a lot of jokes. I never wanted pity, but my honesty came out and went against me. Anyway, now she treats me with respect.

@Appleblossom you are doing amazing sweet ♥️.

Seafood salad sounds yummy, your son definitely has good taste 😋

Thanks @MissGremlin its just nice that he is appreciating healthy food.

What did you end up eating?

Maybe I'm mistaken. Wasn't there a church/choir member who is a psych @Appleblossom ? And you mentioned about her personality in the past?

My apologies if I got this wrong.

It sounds so hard that people can be so judgemental sometimes. If only they knew the battles people have been though.

Hi @Appleblossom it sounds like you've come a long way with your self-confidence and ability to stand up for yourself.

@Appleblossom i had a couple of pieces of roast beef.

Thank you @NightFury

it has been a surprising journey. I have done a lot of shadow work and let go most of my people pleasing ways.

@MissGremlin

@tyme aaah! That one. Hmmm yes. She is still tricky. She is in a secular music group, although we do play religious music, it is not from her religion and not for a service. I appreciate you remembering. I will probably see her on the weekend. I am in 3 instrumental music groups and 2 choirs plus am an organist, plus some zooms in mental health space, so very busy. My life now looks very different from 2 years ago. I even have informal friendships and no longer totally reliant on NDIS supports, though grateful, as I doubt I would be here without… the good support. It is weird as I do have leadership and a range of skills, so honest civic participation means I should not be shrunken to a nodding obedient child. Maybe it’s like I have become cheeky and chatty, and leading more with my mouth. It actually helps to be social in a few areas, so that can be more my conversation, rather than freaking out normies with all my various mentions of mental health stuff. Learning delicate art of what to share….