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Hey @MissGremlin @MJG017 just wanted to come by and say a big good morning

What's on for the day?

Hello @Ru-bee, I can't say it's a good morning for me. Today is an incredibly sad day and one that I'm not sure how to make it through.

Good morning @Ru-bee.

My only plan for today is to take it easy. Tomorrow is a full day so today I'll just be resting up in preparation.

@MissGremlin

I'm sorry it's such a tough morning for you I hoped that once you got some sleep and got to a new day that things would feel better.

@MJG017 today is a year since I had to put my dog down, the one that was only 3 and my assistance dog. I miss her so much 😞

@Ru-bee

Would it help to make a simple plan for today @MissGremlin with some things that might help to support you through this day? Things like staying connected here, calling support lines if needed, maybe getting some fresh air, doing a craft or colouring, putting on a comfort show...

@MJG017 resting up today sounds like a good idea! What does an ideal restful day look like for you?

@Ru-bee I'm trying to stay connected here but also don't want to bring others down. Outside feels too overwhelming for me at the moment, I'm sitting on my lounge with my show on and i have my colouring here but I just feel so dissociated. Crisis lines aren't an option for me given recent things that have happened.

That's okay @MissGremlin just do what feels okay for you. If you need a break today at any point you can take it. If you need to be distracted we can chat. If you need to just talk about how you're feeling for a bit and have someone listen we're here!

I know that today is not the right day for this, but if you feel able in the future I'd really encourage you to give feedback about the service and the recent experience you had. To me it sounds like it might have come from a lack of training or knowledge around trauma and is something that should be addressed by the service.

Thanks @Ru-bee. right now I'm not even sure what I need which makes things really hard.

I've thought about that and I've been trying to find the energy to do it.

@MissGremlin

Oh, it did sound like today was something in particular. It must bring back such sad memories for you today.

We had to get Ryker surgery a year ago for a lump he had on his side I was so worried, that I was just a mess after we dropped him off. So I can't even imagine how hard that must have been with your dog and how difficult those nemories must be. Sending you big virtual hugs 🫂

@MJG017 it's horrible having to leave them at the vet. I only found this all out when she was going in to be desexed and they did routine bloods first and her levels were elevated. So it had to be cancelled and I had to wait until she could have an ultrasound to find out what was going on. She was put on antibiotics as she had a bladder infection and we were hoping that might have been the cause but it was so much worse than that. My world had already fallen apart before all this happened so I was already extremely fragile and it really just sent my world into complete chaos. She was my lifesaver, and was with me through my hardest moments in my life so losing her took a massive part away from me. She will forever be my baby, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of her and the joy she brought to my life.