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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@NightFury im sorry I haven't been around for you. I hope you are doing ok.

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@MissGremlin you don't need to apologise, my friend.

Things have been rougher...in summary, got caught in a spiral over Thursday night through to the weekend, should maybe coulda gone to hospital last night, but decided try to sleep my way through it instead. Feeling breakable, but a little more okay today.

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I'm sorry to hear things have been rough for you @NightFury. that breakable feeling i know so well, but I'm glad you are feeling a little more ok. I'm here for you as much as I can be right now.

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@MissGremlin hmm how puzzling! Hehe

Flip a coin? I would be going hot for sure, but that's cos I am cold!! Are you all toasty in oodie land?

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Very puzzling @Jynx. Think I tiny smile came through or at least a slight smirk.

I made a hot chocolate, it's cold but I'm not feeling it tonight. Just got my hoodie on which doesn't provide much warmth. Are you rugged up and nice and toasty?

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hi @MissGremlin 🫂

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Hi my sweet @Blackcloud, how are you? ❤️

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@MissGremlin I'm ok..been having some IBS flare ups again ever since the move happened. on top of that, I was also experiencing some strange physical symptoms last night when I was about to fall asleep but I think its due to me shivering from the cold temperature - plus I had a shower that evening, so even drying my hair with a fan (instead of a hairdryer) adds onto the shiveringness. thankfully it did go away eventually after I took a few sips of water and did everything else to calm them down, it kinda felt like I was about to d!3 in my sleep...

but now I'm feeling ok I guess

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@Blackcloud sorry to hear about the IBS flaring up. That's why I can't have showers at night time cos my hair takes forever to dry. I'm glad that things did settle for you though, i know that feeling though like you are going to die in your sleep, I get it sometimes and it's horrible.

How's the new apartment going?

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@MissGremlin I literally had to wake myself up a few times in order for those symptoms to completely go away afterwards. True, I guess now I should just take showers either in the morning or afternoon especially because in this new accomodation, I can't use the heater cause it'll increase the costs to my bill and I don't wanna pay any additional bills other than just my rent.

The new apartment is going okay, I'm starting to kind of getting used to living here now, even though my room is kind of messy right now and kind of cramped because the room itself is smaller and don't have much space compared to the room in my previous accomodation.

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