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@MJG017 hope the chips are decent and not soggy ones.

The only reason I got that much sleep was cos of medication and not something that I'll be doing again cos of how it's left me feeling today.

It's like when I get a decent amount of sleep I'm often left feeling more tired then when I only get a small amount. Think my body has gotten used to running on very little sleep.

The iced chocolate was actually yummy, apart from the horrible paper straw to drink out of.

You know I really don't say much intelligent sh!t, my brain don't work that way 😂.

@MissGremlin

So I'm trying really hard to not go on a lengthyrant about paper straws. So hard! It's just that they... No. Resist the rant! Got to my happy place.

Owww... Kittens!

Ah, that's better. What was I talking about?

It really sucks that the medication doesn't seem to be an ongoing option for you. But as you say, you do seem to have adapted to having little sleep. I'm really not sure how you'd still be awake at this stage if you hadn't.

There's different types of intelligent sh!t. You don't have to write long explanations about quantum mechanics to be intelligent. Being a compassionate, caring, and sympathetic towards others takes intelligence. Intelligence isn't just learning a bunch of random facts, it's how we think and our ability to see outside of our own immediate needs and desires. You have that in spades. You always know what to write to someone. That in itself makes you very intelligent in my eyes. So it must be true because I'm smart as sh!t! 🤣

@MJG017 don't even get me started on the paper straw issue 😂.

Kitten cuddles are the best 😊.

I wasn't supposed to even take medication last night but it got to 2.30am and I was done, I needed sleep.

Very true, intelligence comes in many forms. Awww I'm going to take that compliment and run with it, cos right now it means alot to hear. I love being able to support people and offer that kindness and compassion that everyone deserves. You are definitely smart so anything that you say must be true 😂

@MissGremlin

If offering that support and compassion to people gives you a reason to get up every morning, then go with it. I know i need a reason, and it's the same thing that keeps me doing it. I honestly don't know what other reason there is left at the moment. So even if you only have one, embrace it.

If only i could convince other people that i'm always right, it would save a lot of arguments and people storming off muttering "You win.... you're right! Are you happy now?". Somehow i get the feeling there's a touch of sarcasm in it, but a win's a win. 🤣

@MJG017 it really is the only thing that keeps me going at the moment. I can think of a few reasons for you, you have the forums, your partner, your support group and your beautiful cats 😊. Yes I know some days it's hard to find a reason to keep going and that's ok but there's always something there worth fighting for 😊.

Just a slight bit of sarcasm there 😂.

I have to start cooking dinner and I just don't have the energy, why must it be so much effort 😂.

Thanks@MissGremlin. I know i have those reasons as well, but some days it just doesn't feel like enough. The approaching inevitably of everything really does weigh heavily and can be so hard to distract myself from. But, like so many things, it's not something i can control so i try to avoid thinking about it, doesn't mean it's easy though... or even possible at times. Thank god for cats! 😁

What did you end up having for dinner? I might just have some toast or cornflakes later on. That is about the amount of effort i have in me tonight. Why does it take effort to even find the energy to make an effort? 🤣

@MJG017 completely understand. Yes the cats are a good distraction 😊.

I made bolognase, wish i could send some to you but it might get a bit messy 😂. I only managed a couple of mouthfuls. Everything is so much effort 😂.

@tyme i got a question for you. Not sure if it's an easy one to answer but it's kind of bugging me.

Is it normal for a crisis service to ask for specific details about an incident. Like being sexually and physically assaulted and pressing for as much detail as possible, like going into great detail about what was done to me. It's really just triggered me and I feel like I'm reliving the whole incident again.

@Jynx @Ru-bee @rav3n @MJG017

@MissGremlin

From what I think and what I've learnt so far, no, I don't think rhey shouldn't push you to go into details, or anything you're not comfortable going into. They may ask specifics on what someone has been thinking, or what they've olanned in regards to harming themselves to see what sort of risk the persin is at. But going into the sort of details you mentioned seems completely unnecessary to both offing support and determining the level of risk you may be at. All I could see it doing is upsetting anyone, pushing for details like that, making them feel uncomfortable and possibly unsafe and would probably make them very hesitant to reach out again.

That's just how I see it anyway. I don't see any way it would help to push for details like that.

@MJG017 it definitely made me feel very uncomfortable and now I'm left feeling very triggered and I'm struggling to calm down. I'm having vivid flashbacks now and trying to keep myself in the present moment is hard.

Even after I asked them to stop cos it was too much to talk about they kept trying. I ended up leaving the chat cos it was too much.