Battles

It's hard when you feel dismissed, and feel like you haven't been seen or heard.

Things are okay here @MissGremlin I'm tired. My GP appointment went well. I have new meds for nightmares and sleep. They can have some side effects, so we're seeing how it goes.

@NightFury it is hard. It also makes it harder to reach out when I need to for fear of the same thing happening.

I'm glad you have new meds to try and i hope that help but I know the side effects can be tough, hoping they are ok for you.

@MissGremlin such a rough night for you hun, especially getting so little sleep. I hope tonight is a little less intense for you. Glad to see you chatting with our lovely @NightFury 😊

Hope you're travelling okay too @NightFury, new meds can be challenging for sure.

@Jynx I'm hoping tonight is a bit better. But I'm sitting with dark and heavy thoughts and I'm waiting to get through to a crisis service. I'm safe and sitting doing my diamond art with Casper snuggled up next to me.

How are you doing sweet?

I've missed chatting to my sweet @NightFury ❤️

@MissGremlin glad you're reaching out, hope it's not too long a wait 🤞

I'm doing okay, got a few bits and bobs done today, now just curled up with the kitties. Though I think they're about to LAUNCH themselves because their auto feeders go off soon 😂

@Jynx I'm still waiting 😞. I'm sitting here dissociating, really not feeling with it (I'm safe). I've packed up the diamond art, I've got Buffy on but not able to focus on it. Just sitting with a hand on Casper.

Glad you got a few things done today. Curled up with the kitties sounds perfect. Watch the claws when they launch themselves 😂.

Hey there @MissGremlin,

I've just been reading along, and I can see that you've been waiting for to get some support for a little while now, were you able to get in touch with somebody yet?

It's great that you're safe, but also it sounds like you could really use the extra support tonight (sitting with dissociation seems like it would be overwhelming!). So I hope that you were able to talk with someone 🏵

Sending you extra coping energy tonight!

Hello @MindfulMango, I got through but the person ended the chat suddenly after only talking for a couple of minutes, I'm assuming by accident. I tried to reconnect but for ages it was unable to connect me. I've managed to join the queue again so I'm waiting and have been for about 30 minutes now.

It's proving to be a really tough night. The dissociation has been bad the last couple of days. I did mention it to my doctor today but he dismissed it which didn't help. At the moment I'm trying to slow things down but I'm shaking and my breathing is off, my thoughts are all over the place. I don't like when things hit hard like this, it gets scary and overwhelming. I'm safe and laying in bed with Casper just feeling restless and on edge.

Thankyou, i really appreciate it ❤️.

Hey @MissGremlin -

im sorry things are so hard for you sweet but your not alone we are here for you the whole way, im sorry the doctor made you feel so dismissed and not heard that isn’t right. They should know better by now.

But we are here with you sweet.

step by step, little by little.

Do things that help you. Keep reaching out sweet❤️

You’re wanted
You’re loved
You’re needed
You’re worthy
You’re strong
You’re brave
You’re kind
You’re caring
You’re beautiful
You’re precious
You’re gorgeous
You’re a fighter
You’re not a burden
You’re not a waste of space
You’re not a waste of time
You’re not a waste of oxygen
Things do and will get better so just hold on okay cause it will get better
So
keep fighting
Stay strong💖💖

Thankyou @Fluttershy1 sweet ❤️.

Just taking things second by second at the moment, one breath at a time. Still waiting to connect to a crisis service. I'm safe, snuggled up in bed with Casper.