I am 56 and after many traumas in my life

I have had a bad history of Depression in my life .I have had terrible traumas in my life My family are well off but are very mean.They do not help me or my kids .I have 2 children,18 and 20 . Their mother is a kind caring person which I should not of separated from. We grew up in poverty. She lives in a small house that is in bad condition.My daughter lives with her but is depressed , because there is hardly any jobs, there and there is not much to do there .I lost my job 2 years ago.I had to have both knees replaced. I have had 2 shoulder reconstructions.I have diabetes.I have applied to get many jobs with no luck.My mother would sometimes help me out but now she is in a nursing home after having a stroke Her mind is gone.My older sister is executor of my mother's will.She has put her daughter to live in one of my mother's 2 houses.My brother is a diagnosed narcissist who is worth millions,but is very mean I live in a unit.

I have tried every anti depressant around. I asked for ECT treatment from Nepean hospital.First they agreed,then they told me to try TMS which I can not afford and is not as effective. I have been treated very badly by them Nepean hospital.

Most people think that when you get older you and your family can have a better life.Mine has gotten worse.

I am trying to figure out how to keep busy, so I can try to forget all of my problems. If anyone has advice I would appreciate it.