Life can be a Pain

Hi @utopia

It's an arrow pointing - "This way to the fun

In my case - it's pointing to a pile of dishes after cooking lots of meals at the same time - aw -

Dec

@Owlunar ....💗💕

But @Owlunar, you have all tht wonderful cooking done

WTG @Shaz51 .... ❣️

Hi @Shaz51

Yes - I did all that cooking and late yesterday I finished the dishes - I couldn't face the frying pan and the saucepan so I left them to soak

But it was great because I didn't have to cook yesterday

Nor today either - for that matter

Dec

Thinking of you today @OwlunarDec - maybe we can have a cyber crying hug together today. Thanks for your comments on SAD thread. I know you know 🍃☔🌊🏄🏊😴 Do something nice today. I might cook you a choc cake with yummy butter icing and sprinkles, and now I'm crying again, yikes! 💧Tried to sleep but cant. Is it sunny there?

I got through yesterday - I stayed in bed reading for a long time - and then took things easy for the rest of the day

I had a bad moment in the evening - but in time I have learned to let these moment come and have their say and pass -

So it was an okay day.

This morning I felt as if I had done a hard day's work yesterday - but time does pass and here we are. I would have been packing to go away today but because of rail-works I am not going - which is disappointing

My dd and I texted each other yesterday - we both know the date and say little to each other about it - it hurts a lot - and we keep our feelings to ourselves but always text each other

Thanks so much to all my friends here for understanding my absence - I am learning a lot about MI and know now I had something similar in my past - when I kept burning-out and could not cope with the things I had in my life - and even getting out of bed was too hard some days. These times have passed - whatever caused the difference could be time, grieving, understanding the past, freeing myself of my mother and her cruel comments and double-meanings ands frankly - her stupidity. Seeing how much she regretted was an eye-opener.

Still I know there are times when the sky seems to be falling - I do understand how bad things can be for other people at times - maybe all the time - I belong here - it's just that time has made things easier -

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

I wonder what I would find if I had a look for a cyber-crying-hug. Let's see what I come up with

Ah yes!!! Fantastic!!

That cake sounds like just the thing - the idea is great - esp the sprinkes - I love sprinkles

Some days we just need to be - one thing about winter days is that they are short - and it is not sunny here - it's grey and gloomy

Nevertheless - I am washing a couple of my sweaters - it doesn't take long for my favourite Rivers Black and white striped top to get a little grubby - and I want it clean - it will dry out there as long as it the weather is fine

Just let time pass Lapses - we have passed the middle of winter and the days have started to get a bit longer -

Lots of hugs

Dec

Can't wait for your cyber hug pic to come through. Yep. Thought your day was today. Its good your dd makes contact. My girl died unexpectedly, one minute talking to me, within the hour unconscious in my arms where she died waiting for an ambulance, we tried but couldn't bring her back. Allergy they say. Lots of visuals, still can't believe it.

Hi @Former-Member

That must have been truly horrible - I can't imagine anyone dying in my arms - letting alone one of my children. And yes - it was good that my daughter texted me - we text each other a lot - it's what we do and it works for us

My son died away from home and I was in hospital after a car accident when this happened - and when my husband was suddenly there in the morning I knew something bad had happened - so really - waking up today was the time when I learned about it - but he died on the 16th at 11.30 pm

Sometimes it seems a long time ago - sometimes it feels like yesterday

You did nothing wrong if your daughter died of an allergy - it happens - rare I think but I had severe asthma years ago now - and it can be scary to have the problem - but it was worse watching my brother when he had it - but really - I can't visualise what that must have been like for you. No wonder you get flash-backs

As mothers we do the best we can - but there are somethings that cannot be overcome

Dec