Life can be a Pain

good afternoon @Owlunar

one step at a time my second mum

I am glad you had so much sleep yesterday @Owlunar - you must have needed it

Companion Cat has left a hole for you but you know you did the right thing. That doesn't take away that pain from a longterm companion but she is aat peace and not hurting anymore.

Thinking about re-homing a cat is a great idea - it won't replece Companion Cat but it will fill a small part of that hole that she left and any cat would be lucky to have you looking after it

Hi @Zoe7@Shaz51@TAB@utopia

I have been feeling really flat today - totally unmotivated - I think I just have too much happening right now - I can let it be - I am grieving for my cat and she was the one I talked to when things were tough and of course - she's not here now

But it was the right thing - the vet asked me a lot of questions before she may a recommendation - and it was her weight loss that was the main concern - actually she has had weight loss problems for a couple of years now - and whatever it was - she was lashing out at me and I look back and remember how sooky she was before I went to Cairns and when I came home she was crying and needed lots of cuddles - whatever the problem was it has been going on for 3 months so yes - there was something - she was in pain and couldn't tell me - how hard is that for a much loved little cat? - she thought I was magical - I could change the temperature in the room, I could get the food out of the bag and into her plate and could give her a special treat of fish or chicken - and best of all - open the door for her -

And I couldn't take any pain away -

However - I am not thinking about taking on another cat atm - maybe when I am past travelling - I was thinking about New Zealand and that is on the cards - but I would also like to go to Uluru and the Kimberley - there is stuff in Australia I have to see too - I have been feeling the need to travel since my mother died but I cared about the cat too much to leave her for more than a few days and now I can travel and this is good - it's just to focus on atm -

My daughter has her operation on Thursday - that's a hard one too

Anyway - I have been taking things easy - I spent most of the day in my jammies and dressing gown and felt so comfortable it took ages to get dressed and go up to the shop because I needed some things -

I will get over it - I know this - I think a lot has been happening and I am really tired

Dec

There has been a lot happening for you over the last few months @Owlunar so it is no wonder you are feeling tired. I know the loss of Companion Cat has left a great hole in your life but it does now give you those opportunites to travel more and for extended periods of time and she would want you to continue to live your life without her as you did with her. Cats are wonderful creatures that can pick up on our pain as well as our happiness - and right now she would be keeping close because you are hurting - nothing can take that pain away but you can do things for yourself (when you are ready) that she would love to see you do.

Hugs @Owlunar take care snd go easy on yourself. ❤️

Thinking of you.

Thanks @BlueBay@Zoe7@TAB and everyone else

I am totally overwhelmed right now - I can cope with myself but I have nothing much left over - I have got past my son's birthday and miss Companion Cat a lot and keep finding her stuff around - like her own little bed in the other front room that was hidden behind the plastic bags collected for charities - and that was a horrible moment - I know I have done the right thing but it is really hard for me to focus atm

My daughter is having her operation tomorrow and I really hate the thought of this - like everything else it is something that has to happen for things to get better and I think it's the hardest hump of all right now.

I would like to be here for other people but I know everyone understands that there are times when we can't do that and have to focus on our selves but I do want to assure everyone that I am okay - just feel as if I am being dumped in the surf - feel as if I am in the spin-dryer or a flag flying from a flagpole in a gale and getting my innards bounced around all over the place

This evening I rang Life Line and had a good chat about my situation - I tend to get teary at times - I used to tell Companion Cat all about things that were hard to handle and she is not here and she is one of the things I need to chat about

But yes - I am thinking about my next trip which won't be until after the school holidays - I don't know where I will got yet - lots of places - I feel like going somewhere really quite and Lakes Entrances sounds like a good idea - it's one of my favourite places - I can go away as often as I like now and for as long as I like - so I can change my mind every day if I like

I am okay on my own - I enjoy being able to please myself

Back soon - sometime tomorrow

All the best everyone

Dec

Thanks @TAB

I will check in again tomorrow and say "Hi" to everyone after my daughter has had her operation -

I have been really tired lately and it takes all day to get myself movitivated - natural I think

The special little puss is around here somewhere - I can hear little creaks and knocks around the place - just the sound of the sound warming up or cooling down - or the screen door banging - I feel as if the cat is banging on the front door to get me to let her in

Oh yes - she still loves me - I dream she is getting onto my lap or snuggling against me in my bed - these have to be good dreams

Back later - thanks Tabby Cat

Dec