Life can be a Pain

Hi @utopia@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@outlander@Zoe7

I'm just checking in - I really don' feel very useful today - the BP tablets are really knocking me about and my daughter is still very ill and

I don't like complaining

So I hope to get back later today - I did read quite a few threads before I got up this morning - and I will be really glad when I either get used to this medication or I get onto a different one

I am okay-ish - don't unusually down in the dumps - just pretty tired mostly

Dec

And I am seeing my doctor tomorrow

Glad that you are seeing your doctor tomorrow @Owlunar -it seems these meds are having a very big impact on you - which is not good! So sorry your daughter is still very ill - I hope she can begin to recover very soon - that would be adding to your 'down in the dumps' feeling. Look after You Dec - but thanks for checking in and letting us know how you are

Thanks @Zoe7

I am absolutely sure that one reason I feel as if I am walking in deep water right now is that my daughter is so ill yet all I get is text messages which I understand - I am extremely inquisitive about what's happening and she is a very private person - so I am glad I am getting text messages

And the new medication also - actually my BP is fine - a bit low - i have a BP machine - I am sort of wondering if I really need the tablets - I couldn't really see that high blood pressure related to pain and stress needed this kind of treatment but apparently it does so I am complying but - well - you would know - not having anyone here to attend to some chores like cooking - that can be wearing because if I don't eat properly that would be worse - and I have thought of having meals delivered but I have tried that and they are indifferent, salty, and I feel it's better to do my best here.

I'm taking some time out but home to be back later - at least I don't have anything in my diary for today

Dec

I hear it is frustrating for you just getting text messages @Owlunar but at least it is something and you are not completely 'in the dark' about how your daughter is doing.

If your BP is low then you may need an adjustment of the meds - the high BP could have been the pain and stress you have been - talk to you GP about it again (I'm sure you are going to anyway) as you can feel very light headed and unwell when you BP is low - I know I did!

I will try to check in with you again later and see how you are travelling @Owlunar - do what you need to do to look after yourself

I am Glad that you are seeing your doctor tomorrow @Owlunar, sending you tender hugs

Hi @Shaz51@Zoe7

I made my main meal of the day for lunch so I don't have to worry about that later and I still feel light-headed and a little weird - really glad I am seeing the doctor tomorrow

Honestly I don't really think I need these tablets but I guess high blood pressure due to pain and stress does need to be treated too - I am thoroughly sick and tired of all of this - I have been battling painful orthopaedic issues since last August and I have enough stress to complain as well and I am sharing this even though I don't like telling people about it

Aw........I need the support right now I think - I am physcially worn thin too - and yes - my daughter-

yes Zoe - I am glad I am getting text messages - she does keep things to herself and I sometimes find out about them - often I get told after it's all over and the trouble could be she sees privacy as the way it should be for everyone and I don't agree but there we are - I am worried because in texts she doesn't tell me how sick she is - on the couple of short phone calls we have had she sounds terrible and does tell me how it is

After starting this paragraph a few times I have decided that it's enough to say we don't see eye-to-eye about the importance of certain issues - and that's fine - things are better than they were a couple of years ago

The tough part for me right now is that I am so physically spinning out - I am okay alone but find it hard to attend to my chores - I like being alone but it's never easy when I can't go out - a trip to the local shops is hazardous - my head was spinning a couple of days back and I nearly got knocked over another time and this is something I tend to avoid - so yeah - I find this frustrating

I hate whinging too - so this has to be important - I keep a lot to myself most of the time - perhaps I am like my daughter too - btw - I don't tell her about my health issues unless I am actually with her

But thanks everyone - it means a lot that you are there

And Melbourne had a very hot night last night - early this morning I heard a strange wind blow up and I went out and got my washing - forgot it last night - and the sky was angry and I was surprised how hot it was - really strange - and I heard on the news it was 30 C last night - and we are half-way through Autumn

Good news - the weather is okay today and I seem to be typing well

Dec

I understand that head spinning feeling @Owlunar - I had that a lot over more than 12 months with beginning and ceasing different meds. It makes you feel really unsteady on your feet and is quite debilitating - I had trouble doing anything including standing up at times

It must be hard as a mother to not know how sick your daughter is but I am a bit like her - I value my privacy and do not like much 'interference' from family - but then I have different reasons for that also!

I think it is a good thing that you are feeling comfortable enough to write how you are feeling here Dec - we all need a little extra support some times and you have certainly done that for me many times - so I am more than happy to 'listen' to you here

here for you too @Owlunar xxxxxx

Hi again @Zoe7 and @Shaz51

Thanks so much -

My daughter was born too soon and it took her a long time to thrive - she was born at 8 months and had a good weight but she had an immature liver and was one of the first babies in Australia to have photo-therapy - and she was touch and go for a while - and she hates hearing about this and doesn't like being a miracle - this is strange to me because I am happy to be hear regardless my ancestry and beginnings - but this is the way she is and I love her

I can understand the need for privacy though - I don't share much and my mother - aw - she would usually take everything the wrong way - and was do adept at this gift of chronic misunderstanding I kept away from her most of the time - sometimes for years on end

But the good thing is my daughter and I have a good relationship most of the time and it's getting better

Dec