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Giving up on medication
Im now only using that medication as a sleeping pill as it's the only thing that puts me to sleep but I'm still blurry in the head so I'm going to slowly go off it.
I was meant to start my new medication yesterday and got the script made. The pharmacist came down with pages about the medication and the boxes was covered in warning stickers. The pharmacist then looks at me with the most sadest look and starts warning me about the side effects and that I can not stop taking it as it's very dangerous. Then I was like I don't want to have zero control of my body. I don't want to take a new tablet that has the chances of making me still feel dumb and unable to be me. I don't want to have to slowly go off something and feel horrible. Then the pharmacist told me to make sure I don't crush the pills. Then I freaked out. I can not swallow tablets never have never will tried everything out of the book. I was like I have to I told my doctor I can't swallow tablets and she's like hell no the way it realises won't be good for you if you crush the tablet.
Then and there I thought no more to tablets. I want a clear head. I just want a clear head for once with out poison in it that my body is rejecting.
Is anyone on here with rapid cycling bipolar that takes no medication. And tips on how to live life just on hope?