Depression and anxiety, especially anxiety right now

Hello @Lula. Sorry to hear how you are feeling. Those are alot of tough things to be feeling and sitting with.

Would you like to chat about it? I'm here if you would like to. Take a deep breath and know that you are safe here ☺️.

Hey @Lula ,

Sorry to hear you are feeling so depressed and the anxiety isn't helping! Has something happened so you are feeling this way?

We are sitting with you hun

@tyme and @Former-Member

@MJG017 he knows my story. I’ve been dealing with bad depression, and sometimes really bad anxiety and today is one of those days. I am alone and so lonely though I did have company for a while today and a phone call from a friend who lives far away. Both were lovely when they there but when they were gone I felt very very flat and anxious, and started panicking so badly. I’ve not had much company the rest of the week, except situations that caused me stress, and nothing to look forward to the next few days. I feel like I’m in a vacuum of nothingness and it’s frightening me I’m loosing the plot. I’m going through a change of medication process and it’s going very badly and getting almost no support. It’s an absolute nightmare and if I have to go through this all over again with another change I really hate to think. I don’t know how much more I can take of this

@Lula awww sweet, that sounds so tough. I'm glad you did have some company for a while but I can understand the loneliness after and that's when everything tends to hit hard. Medication changes can be so hard and it takes our bodies time to adjust but in the meantime it really does mess with us. Have you got any cooling strategies when you start getting anxious and panicking?

I hear you have alot going on and that you don't have anything to look forward to. Are you able to go for a nice walk somewhere? Sometimes just being in nature is great for our system.

You are not alone. We are always here for you if you want/need to chat. ❤️

Hi @Lula

Sometimes having that bit of company can feel worse than being alone when we're feeling really down. I know would enjoy the short bits of company when they happened, but once it was over I knew it was back to the loneliness and it felt like it was just life teasing me with what could be.

If it does help at all, always feel free to reach out here and if I'm not around then I'm sure someone else will be here to chat to. I know it's not the same as sitting down with someone face to face, but it helps.

It sounds like these changes to your medication are just making everything so difficult for you right now. Let's just hope this is the last change and things will start looking up for you very soon.

Like I said before, we're here with you, and to support you though his very difficult time, so do your best to stay strong and please lean on us as much as you need. I know you can get through this. Things will get better.

@MJG017

Thank you M for your kind words, your support and encouragement. So much appreciated.

I’ve had a bit of company today (5 minutes) a phone call from a good friend 3+ hours drive away, and texts from another good friend 1000ks away, so as we’ve said before it’s great while it lasts and when it finishes it’s back to being in huge emptiness and sadness.

I’m getting lower and lower - sleeping badly, not eating enough, not getting the exercise I need, I’m loosing more weight, not getting the support I need locally. I can’t remember if I ever told you that I live in a retirement village and it’s the loneliest and most isolated I’ve ever been - and there are people all around.

I’ve tried so many different ways to be positive and keep moving upwards, but it’s not working. I can’t do it on my own, without people being part of it all. I don’t know why it isn’t working, what I’m doing wrong.

bye for now M. You take care too xx

Hi @Lula

I'm sorry things are getting worse for you and there's not a lot of support for you locally. I always thought one of the advantages of retirement villages was the social contact. I've always wondered similar things. It's not like i've lived most of my life in some remote log cabin in the middle of nowhere... i've always been around other people but have always really struggled to form meaningful, strong connections with people. I admit that i've always been introverted... very much so what I was younger, but did it put people off that much?! I never really figured it out.

Try you best to at least keep the meals and fluids up, as it will only make things worse. I know it's hard to find the motivation at times like this, but do your best. Are there any activities or groups locally you could look at going to? It's never really been my thing, but it is something I try to push myself in to.

Take care and look after yourself Lula. I'm usually not too far away if you need to chat to someone.

Thank you M