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Something’s not right

Idk what to do anymore

Idk what to do anymore

I feel as everything is just shattering and nothing can go right I'm just so tired of being like this, I just feel so stuck and trapped in my own thoughts and I have no one to go to for this because no one cares at all

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I know the feeling, do you feel comfortable venting?

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If it's ok

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please do ❤️

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hey there @Butterfly_love i'm so sorry you feel this way, i can hear how exhausting and overwhelming this has been for you. please know that WE care. you deserve to feel heard and seen, and it really sucks that you've been made to feel the opposite. reaching out here shows so much courage. we're here for you.

just wondering how you feel about reaching out to others to chat about those intrusive thoughts? have you spoken to a professional about it before? do you have any strategies that help manage those thoughts/feelings?

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I just feel useless and I'm not any good for anyone no one ever cares

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Professionals don't help me at all

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Has something triggered this? I pretty familiar with those feelings so I'm sorry you're feeling like that

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@Butterfly_love wrote:
I just feel useless and I'm not any good for anyone no one ever cares

do you mind me asking why you think that? @Butterfly_love

in my experience, i grew up with people telling me how useless i was for simply making a 'human error' or being different. i felt like no one cared or wanted to understand me. but with time (and support) i eventually did learn that i AM deserving of love, support and care. even if the world and the people around me try to convince me otherwise, it's not their right to decide my worth. all human beings deserve to be treated with kindness and care, i'm so sorry that you haven't been treated well. but that doesn't mean you deserved the mistreatment - you are worthy.

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Hi @Butterfly_love

I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way, Butterfly-love. That sounds incredibly difficult. Have these feelings been with you for a long time?

I know you haven't found helplines helpful, which makes sense if it’s hard to put your feelings into words. Have you considered speaking to your GP? When I reached out, I found that medication helped take the edge off my obsessive thoughts, which gave me a bit of space to feel hope again. The negative voice is still there, but it’s quieter now.

A big part of the journey is figuring out who we truly are. For a long time, I felt like I was failing because I didn’t have a partner or children, but I’ve come to realize that I actually enjoy my own company. It’s not always easy, but I remind myself that my path is just as valid as anyone else’s.

As an autistic person, I’ve faced bullying my whole life. This year, it really took its toll, and I seriously thought about giving up. But then something shifted, I felt anger. Anger at all the people who made my life unbearable and left me hating myself. That anger gave me strength. I started taking small risks, like letting go of the need to please everyone just so they’d like me. I’ve also learned to be quiet when I need to, which has brought me a lot of peace. If people think I’m standoffish, I just tell them I’m autistic and sometimes I need silence.

I hope you find that strength too, Butterfly-love. You deserve kindness, especially from yourself.

Sending you warmth and support.

Snuggles 🥰

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