feeling lost

I never thought I’d myself scrolling on the Internet just to talk to someone because today just feels like I’m lost. My partner and I broke up about two weeks ago and I feel mentally gone. Not just the fact that I’m not with the person I love but my family life just isn’t what I hope it would be everyone’s moving around and getting so ahead in life. I’m just standing still.

I've had constant thought about ways to get the attention of my past partner that includes hurting myself, I hit my legs, and i started vaping again. I don't have a social life and everyone around me is happy, and in relationships. I'm always home alone and sit in my room not eating a whole day or showering for days. I don't know what to do. It almost feels silly that I’m writing something like this because I have such a comfortable life, but I just don’t feel anything anymore.