a very curious question indeed,
i thought i knew what both were, but then it changes to what it could be and what it might be, and how can we influence these great big words,
I find myself Lost, alot, just ask thee other forum members LOL - i am trying to find my optimism
I am currently in a really down place, and i have hope, for me my hope is that i am capable of surviving, i am strong enough to get through, the lows, strong enough to challenge the highs, and the stupidity that can bring, i have lost all my hope before, i have lost it too many times now, but in thee bleak, i seem able to climb back to thee light, it sometimes takes me a day sometimes takes me weeks, i know that when the hope is lost it is not gone i have just misplaced it for a little bit.
Hope is also for me, having this forum, to be able to express myself, to be able to write what i am going through, to know that even when i feel abandoned by life, there is always friendly and understanding people here, this forum, gives me hope, it gives me the hope to find my strength to claw my way back, and as long as it takes as often as i fall, hope endures - quote by rick.
Optimism, for me is the dark horse, how do i view optimism, is it going to sleep at night, knowing that my day tomorrow, is unplanned, and that i can do what i want to get myself out of thee hole?
is it knowing that altho, i am really struggling, mentally and physically, i can be aware that if i can produce even thee smallest part of optimism, it can change everything that i am feeling.... optimism, that next week my new psychiatrist is going to click with me, that my psychologist will help me learn how to deal with thee overwhelming doubt and horror and blame and shame that i place onmyself every day.... or is it a simple tomorrow is not here yet, so therefore optimistically it is already going to be awesome.
and thee funny thing i realise as i am writing this, barely able to type due to weird pains, that optimism breeds hope, and hope breeds optimism, for one to be optimistic, then one is seeking hope.
Thank you
i hope it makes sense