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What's the point anymore
What's the point of reaching out for support when noone cares about what you are going through or how you are feeling.
Why bother talking about suicide when they just think it's a joke and that you aren't really going to do anything. Reaching out for help when you are at your lowest point takes so much strength, it takes so much to admit how you are feeling and to accept that you need help.
But what do you do when noone will help, what do you do when you are told to just rest and you'll be OK, to just breathe and you'll be OK, to just think positive and you'll be ok.
No amount of just breathing or rest or positive thoughts are going to magically make everything stop, it's not going to make me suddenly better, it's not going to stop the trauma from happening to me, it's not going to stop the thoughts and what I want to do to myself.
I'm sick of reaching out for support/help in these moments only for my thoughts and feelings to be dismissed, to be criticised for what I'm going through, to be made to feel guilty for how I'm feeling, to be passed from one service to another with noone able to help.
I'm exhausted, I'm scared, I'm hurting, I'm at the point of giving up. But it's OK I'm not really going to do anything am I? There just thoughts right and it's not like I'm going to act on them am I?
It really doesn't matter how I feel does it?
I give up, I quit, I admit defeat. I won't bother these services that are supposed to help anymore. I'll just silently fight my own battles until I can no longer!
