Triggered and struggling

I hear how much you are triggered and struggling @Former-Member .

In line with our Community Guidelines, what does support from the community look like for you at the moment?

Would you consider calling a helpline?

Sitting with you.

@tyme I've done that, I've reached out for help but honestly it's just not getting me anywhere. I'm sorry, I know everyone has had enough of hearing about my pathetic problems when so many others have it worse.

I'm just sick of it being like this, it's like everyday is getting harder to fight and get through. At what point can I just give up so I don't have to hurt anymore.

"Not hurting anyone"? Then giving up is not an option @Former-Member

We believe in you. You CAN do it.

Let the community know what support at this time looks like to you.

We are here for you.

@tyme I'm just trying to not sit alone with everything by myself. So just chatting and trying to keep my mind distracted.

Being in my own head right now is an incredibly scary place and one i want to escape from.

Absolutely @Former-Member . It's not easy to escape your own head.

Do you have online games you play? Or games on your phone? I find this can sometimes be a good distraction.

@tyme i do play some games on my phone but get bored very easily of them.

At the moment my focus has quickly turned to my heart. The one thing we were hoping this medication wouldn't affect and it seems to be having an impact now with my heart rate spiking to 193bpm when all I'm doing is sitting on my bed. I think I'm in for a long night.

Actually, now that you say that, I got a phone call from someone about 2 weeks ago who mentioned medication gave him extremely high blood pressure.

In the end, he ended up going into a private clinic, had TMS and they gave him the med while in the clinic to monitor his heart. It was to determine it was the heart or anxiety.

Does private admission work for you? @Former-Member

@tyme never heard of private admission. But I only go through the public system.

Unfortunately they haven't been able to work out what's going on with my heart and my doctor was concerned that this medication could affect it as it's one of the side effects but others are riskier.

Fair enough @Former-Member .

If it gets worse, please contact 000.

@Former-Member ... sorry to hear of your struggles, I too have been having a tough time. I find myself puzzles like sudoku to occupy my mind and have me think of things differently.

I have also gotten into the herbal tea habit again, and there are good relaxing teas to be found out there along with soft gentle music (or strong vibrant beats dependent on what you feel like)

I am here to talk and listen if needed, and would like to thank you for your support in the past as well, we are all here for each other.