Life and trauma

@MJG017 yes it's a bad day but it's only going to get worse. I only have until the 13th to try and sort accommodation out. I'm trying so hard to keep myself safe, some moments it's doable others it's such a struggle. I'm exhausted but I can't lose focus or control. But right now the reality is I'm not coping and sooner or later I'm going to need that extra support to try and keep safe.

Can you try and distract me somehow please? I've tried today so many times but nothing has worked other than to just pass the time.

@Jynx i went outside earlier today and cleaned my car windows but the sun is too bright for me. I need a distraction cos I'm heading into a really dark place.

Ooh I can help with that @Former-Member

But first, HUGS

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Hmmm wanna pick a topic? Can dooooo! We could talk about fav foods, music, bugs, vampires, deep philosophical questions, tell funny stories..... Oh except you probably got the analysis paralysis!! Lemme know if you want me to pick a topic randomly 😉

Thankyou for the hugs @Jynx , very much needed right now.

And yes analysis paralysis big time. I can't even think to pick so that job is on you this time.

@Former-Member haha luckily it's easier to choose when it's not a choice for me!! If that makes sense...

Okay!! Well since I just had to scoop a tiny spider out of the air, how bout bugs!! Do you like spiders, or you a 'burn it all down it's the only way to be sure' kinda person?

Do you like preying mantids? Or dragonflies? Also wanna see my contender for silliest bug?

@Jynx spiders don't worry me and i like bugs aswell.

Praying mantis are beautiful and I actually had one here not long ago. And sure why not.

Some of my little friends I've found lately. @Jynx

@Former-Member EEE nice!! I love spiders, but I still get the super ick feeling if I find one crawling on me!! Used to have a huge golden orb weaver outside my bedroom window growing up, and a huntsman that lived behind our shower curtain - so I got used to em!!

Hehe here, I give you the derpiest bug of all - the weevil!!

haha look at its little face!!

Do you get lots of pests and stuff you gotta manage with your ickle butterfly babies?

@Jynx yeah I love watching orb weavers, get them regularly here usually across my arch outside, always have to check before walking through it 😂.

Awww that face is just too cute 😍.

Get lots of ladybugs, also get wasps but they are a pest and k!ll the caterpillars.

Fun fact did you know that this funny looking thing

Turns into this cute ladybug

@Former-Member omg SO CUTE!! Haha bugs are so weird hey, to think something all spiky and goth looking could turn into a ladybug!! Aww and look at the little gecko!!

Lemme rustle up some of my bug pics....

Did you know that orb weavers eat their web every morning and put it back up each night? Imagine having to eat your house every day... 😲🤣