Anxiety is high

Nice to get out. Weather's been nice to do so. Do you go out often? @BlueBay

Hi @tyme

apart from my appts (Dr etc) I do have a few friends. But the past few years I’ve been more and more a home person. Hiding away. Not really want to see anyone.

I'm in pain today. I think it’s from crochet. My neck snd shoulder is quite sore. It’s giving me headaches. I just used a heat pack. But no relief. Took some pain meds.
it hurts to lay down or turn to my right.

how was your weekend @tyme

hi @Jynx @Shaz51 @Snowie @outlander @Emelia

But at least you can still go out with people. Would you consider booking in more of these catch-ups to get you out a bit more @BlueBay ?

My weekend's been okay I guess. Not much happening.

Today is very hard

emotional sad angry

today is my dads birthday. He turns 88.
I can’t see him

I wrote a card and put it away with the other cards I have for him

it’s a sad day 😥😥

same time I feel very angry because of my mum who is a narcissist controlling person

happy birthday Dad

wishing you a beautiful day

I’m sorry I can’t see you

just know I love you so much

xxxxxx

Aww @BlueBay sending you some gentle hugs 💜

Thnx @Jynx xx

i really miss my dad so much

i hope he knows that i love snd miss him so much

but not sure how much my mother has brainwashed him with crap about me. And how much he believes her.

@BlueBay aww hun, I can only imagine how hard it is to not know, to not be able to reach out and connect. I hope he does get the chance to read your letters one day.

Do you have anything on this evening? Or just keeping it nice n chill?

Not doing much tonight @Jynx

I’m thinking about stuff and if only things were different

sometimes I blame myself for a lot of things

seeing my dr tomorrow got my sore shoulder/back.

Did you have a nice day?

@BlueBay I think it's sometimes hard NOT to blame ourselves... My reckoning is that sometimes, when things happen to us that are terrible, we want SO BADLY to ensure it never happens again that we find something we feel we did wrong, so that we can say 'look, there's the mistake, so now I won't do that any more so this terrible thing doesn't happen again.' It's only natural. And it can be worked through 😉

Oh ouch! Hope the doc helps you figure it out, hey! My day has been pretty chill so far, not much happening except some VERY chatty kitty cats this morning! They disrupted my sleep in, grrrr 😼

But then I heard Razz making that like, 'kekekeke' noise cos she saw a bird and that noise always makes me really happy! So I dragged myself outta bed to feed em before they went and started pouncing on some parrots!!