My life is a train wreck

Hey @Rainbowzebra ,

I hear you are battling. It hear your pain. I hear how much you have been fighting to stay afloat.

There are things in life we just can't pinpoint a reason for, yet your feelings and responses are valid.

What supports do you currently have in place? I'm mindful you mentioned that finances are hindering your ability to get the help you want. Are there any other supports?

Thinking of you.

@tyme thanks for replying. Just to add to the disaster list my internet is now not working very well either so haven't been able to get on here.

Honestly I don't seem to have any support. I can't afford to get professional help right now. One of my friends just got married and is on her honeymoon and the other is mostly with her girlfriend. I never seem to be with her for long enough to find the courage to tell her how I feel right now. I'm feel desperately alone in the world.

I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this and I have lost hope that life can look any different for me.

Hey @Rainbowzebra ,

Have you checked whether you are eligible for SANE's Guided Recovery Sessions? https://www.sane.org/referral

Or, otherwise, the Recovery Groups? https://www.sane.org/recovery-club

These are free of charge and may be more accessible to you at this time.

We are also here for you.

@tyme thanks I'm actually engaging with the Sane program, but I struggle with the telephone sessions, I find it hard to make that connection when it's not face to face. I also didn't tell her how I was feeling last time because I live in WA and so I have to convert the time and I added time the wrong direction and was having a nap when she called and I never quite got my thoughts on order to articulate what I was feeling.

• I have another session tomorrow but I just find it all a bit generic help. I've had a lot of therapy over the years and I know all the basic strategies but I find they simply don't work when I fall this far. I'm still forcing myself to live my life. I go to work everyday, make an effort to socialise, exercise, get outside etc etc but I feel the same. I find this time of year so hard I just have to try and white knuckle it through and hope I feel better on the other side. Unfortunately the other side for me is February because I also dread my birthday at the end of January.

What about the Recovery Club sessions? They are held via video in groups. https://www.sane.org/recovery-club

@Rainbowzebra