Am Not Coping

I'm getting used to it @Former-Member It is really hard to eat much - I have been having alot of soups but haven't had the energy to make any this week. Last night I finally managed to make a small salad and couldn't eat that either - both couldn't chew and made my stomach worse. I was talking to Lunar yesterday about the physical and emotional pain affecting each other - so after yesterday afternoon I am not suprised that my stonach was so bad. The fainting is purely from the extent of the pain - on a 1-10 scale it would be an 8-9!

You maybe should bring some lollies along to the party lol - if you can stop yourself from eating them all!

Yes Toby is a little sweetheart - he is laying on my feet atm but he will sit by the shower waiting for me to get out - which I better go and have now.

I will check back in later when I am able to

omstars @Zoe7

Did you have a visit to the dentist yesterday? I am sorry you are in so much pain and feel so sick you fainted - horrible feeling

I'm glad you had the bean bag underneath you too -

So - are you feeling better today - there has been a lot of stress happening lately - that would not have helped your tummy probs one bit

Thinking about you and hoping you have a better day today

Dec

Aww @Zoe7 I'm so sorry that the pain is so bad!! Is there anything that can be done?

You're so right there with the physical and emotional pain effecting each other...we were having a bit a chat about that connection here this morning actually. I really do hope that this pain stops soon or at the very least eases up for you very soon!

Haha yes I will certainly bring some lollies to the party...and I will try my best to restrain myself. This is me restraining myself...

He is beautiful! I've said it before but I''l say it again...I just absolutely LOVE the loyalty of dogs. They are the sweetest and its just a special bond that you share

Talk to you when you can. I hope everything goes well with the appointment

@Faith-and-Hope your picture is just what I needed when I came home

then I saw the one @Former-Member posted and giggled You have got so much younger Rockpool lol

@Faith-and-Hope I can imagine how much you are hurting with the situation with D1 - she is usually the more 'reasonable' baby dragon and to not have her 'in your corner' atm would be so hard

I have a feeling that this afternoon is going to be a bit more of an 'eye-opener' for WH so just letting you know I am here and will be around for you afterwards. I will of course be around for the party but apart from that I think I will need to keep my distance a little from other threads today to be able to look after myself - definitely a bit fragile atm and very tired So priority 1 is you and 2 is party Hon

@Owlunar no I didn't go to the dentist - I do need to but can't cope with that at the moment. My jaw (and my whole body) is very weak and aching - just part of the continued illness and MH (they affect each other!) My IBS certainly is certainly worse when I am both physically and emotionally unwell.

@Former-Member I am back home with Toby and Cat now and very happy to not be around the hospital anymore. The tests took over an hour and was exhausting so took me a little while to be able to drive home. I won't get the final report until next week but I do know my blood oxygen levels are very low and that is contributing to how sick I have been - it's a vicious cycle - I can't go out into the fresh air because it is too cold and even rugged up I get sick (plus all my fears atm) - and I can't get better without being able to go out into the fresh air - sucks!!!!

Hi @Zoe7

I have a sweet tooth and just love lollies - now and again I buy a couple of those little Snickers bars - if the weather is bleak or whatever gets under the skin

I have had a lot of dental work and lost a lot of teeth - but I have been lucky with my dentist

I really feel for you with all these things - stress > IBS > stress > IBS v

^IBS <stress < IBS < stress

That was rather interesting to do - but it seems to suit what must be happening - add the words pain and anxiety etc - but I don't want to start another diagram

Take things as easy as you can and I hope things get easier - I so do hope the do get easier

Dec

@Faith-and-Hope I actually don't have a heater I could take outside - but it is when I need to go out for appointments as well - the cold hits me and my throat and nose are instantly blocked and sore. I think this is just one of those cases of having to continue to wait it out - I have not recovered at all from the flu lat year - still have a very low immune system.

@Owlunar yep it is a cycle that continues - one affects the other and round and round it goes. I am very careful with what I eat - when I can eat arghh - but when it is really bad anything I eat affects me. Not being able to chew my usual snacks (which are often carrots) is not helping either. I feel so unwell and so weak and there is no wonder I want to give up. If I didn't have depression already this would be really depressing lol

I totally understant that @Zoe7

Depression causing depression

Sometimes I will have a flare with my back pain and I believe and my doctor understands that the pain makes the pain worse

So - it seems - if I can do this diagram again depression>pain gets worse>depression>stress gets worse v

^stress<tummy upset<depression<pain<stress<triggers

I think I get it - I'm so sorry - actually - as hard as it can be some days - and yes - I have to lie down for a while with my hot pack - my pain is the devil I know and I would rather have the devil I know

Back later - my pain specialist has told me to lie down for about an hour each day - I don't always but today I must

I will catch up with you later

Dec