Am Not Coping

Woo-hoo ... looking good @Former-Member .....; 👍🏼

Reaching gently through the screen for you @Zoe7. Have saved this one for the right time.

Hope you're ok out there 💗

@Former-Member - those drawers are going to look great!

@Phoenix_Rising I think it was super sweet of you to post about you birthday lunch with (A) on this thread. It actually made me tear up a little - one because it felt like the safe, supportive place it was meant to be again, and two you shared it with us to celebrate how it made you feel

I honestly believe that this relationship you are developing with (A) is growing every day and it is becoming a really positive onefor you. I was really pleased to hear that you went shopping together - no that is not a usual experience in these situations but it does happen. I am not sure if you remember but my psychologist drove me (in her own time) to the end of year leaver's dinner last year because I was not able to drive myself (too much anxiety and lethargy) and she didn't want me to miss out on saying goodbye to the kids that were leaving. So it is't a usual occurence but it does happen - and (A) sounds like one of the good ones.

It is great to have 'met' turtle and that your blanket was used as a picnic blanket - many uses for the one thing

I am so looking forward to celebrating your birthday with you tomorrow - I have completely 'cleared my schedule' (hahaha - that is funny considering I don't do anything anyway lol). 'See' you tomorrow little turtle - can;'t wait

@CheerBear I super, super, super love that cat image - I am going to draw that - it is amazing Thankyou for that - it did actually 'pick me up' a bit when I saw it

@Former-Member I think it is a great idea to start a new thread for 'Projects'. If you start it tag me in and I will be more than happy to help you through this project. The chest oif drawers will look great in white

@Zoe7 Yeah, my relationship with (A) is a struggle. I think it will stabilise over time, but I can see that we are never going to really connect because we are SO different. Thus, even though I deeply value the fact that she cares about me, I feel hopeless about her being able to actually HELP me. It really is true that we get along great...so long as we don't talk. I know that sounds funny, but it is actually true. She tends to use the sickly high-pitched motherese tone, that makes me feel like I'm either a puppy or a baby, and she seems to default to using really basic counselling skills rather than having an authentic conversation with me. I realise that this is simply her, and she can't change who she fundamentally is anymore than I can change who I fundamentally am. I am hoping that if she can at least provide a bit of stability and a sense of safety, then I will be able to get myself into a headspace to perhaps heal myself. As much as she cares about me, I can see that (A) and I are probably never going to actually do therapy as such.

Anyway, I see that a new thread has appeared regarding my birthday. Am I allowed to look at that one yet? I haven't looked at the secret party planning thread once - not even when @Shaz51 tagged me in it a couple of hours ago.

ohhh no sorry @Zoe7

I was repling to @NikNik , oops

@Phoenix_Rising

@Phoenix_Rising yeah I do get that your relationship is most likely more about stability for you rather than 'therapy'. We have discussed this before - it is hard when that person is 'not really switched on' and thus cannot help with your muddle (or is it puddle now lol) but does still provide a safe place for you to be - sometimes that is just as important to enable you to be able to - as you say 'to perhaps heal yourself'.

YES you can look at your party thread - preparations are well under way in Secret Party Planning and will not be finalised and added to your Party thread until tomorrow morning

@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Phoenix_Rising @CheerBear @Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member

I have just realised that I have my psychiatrist appointment in about an hour's time - too much time on party planning - not even looking at what time it is lol

I then have my GP appointment afterwards so I better 'bugger off' (that one is for you @utopia ) and get ready.

Catch ya all later...

Zoe

@Zoe7 Are you going to explain to your psychiatrist that you have spent the morning planning a party for a sea turtle? Shhhh...don't mention that the sea turtle is considered "too complex" for a psychiatrist to even meet. I am super glad to see you having so much fun party planning @Zoe7.