Am Not Coping

I didn't think you would @Faith-and-Hope but that did bring a tear to my eye and put a smile on my face - means so much

Hi @Former-Member .... 😊💕

Hugs @Zoe7 🌹🤗

Popping in to say hello and that I am thinking of you always. I did read your worry room post and can relate very much. This can be a vicious cycle - nightmares, not sleeping, caught in ones own thoughts, and then too tired to do anything in the day. And the cycle continues. This isn't good.

To break this what I "had to do" was no matter how tired, I had to get out and do things throughout the day. Not everyday but most. I was agrophobia and suffered catatonic depression - I just sat, stared and cried. Did almost nothing else. This was caused by a mixture of present trauma, past trauma and abuse, and biological health issues. Medical professionals wanted to commit me, my husband stopped that.

To do the latter and put myself out there was a pure act of will on my part, but anything was better than where I was. A lot don't come back from that but I wasn't going to stay there. I became determined. Find that in you my friend. And no matter how your mind thinks it against the odds start to see a getter future.

One of the most important things to help when suffering mental health issues this way is "to keep some sort of routine" every day no matter how we feel, how tired drained or afraid. The body will catch up on sleep eventually as this will help ensure better sleep patterns. It also offsets the isolation which is very much the culprit here and triggers of the nightmares and fears. Even though this is the last thing we feel like doing, to get better we need to do the opposite of what the depression, anxiety etc is telling us to do. That's how we fight this.

I am not sure what your GP and psychiatrist is advising @Zoe7, but from personal experience and suffering similarly this is crucial for getting better. You don't have to stay this way.

You are not a toy to the world my friend - you a valuable person whom people love and whom the world needs more of. You have your valued place in the world. This is what you need to discover and we won't staying at home. Don't listen to the lies of your mind. Putting yourself back out there in small steps (pushing through the anxiety attacks, don't give into them), will have you in a better place. Push through the fears and keep busy. I had to do this for quite awhile and then eventually the anxiety lessened. Isolation is what is keeping you in your head, in the past and unable to sleep better. It's feeding your anxiety/depression. You need to connect on the outside, connect with others in a very limited capacity to begin with and then build on that. Build an nurture trust again with the right people. Not all will hurt you. It can't be worse than you feel now and it won't be. Don't listen to your mind my friend - just do it.

Everything I say to you I have your best interest at heart. Start believing in the value and good in you and let it shine in the world. It's time for a leap of faith. Baby steps. Love always xx

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member

@Zoe7 🌹💜

You can do this @Zoe7

I bet right now you are regretting telling me where I could find online stickers from 😫😩😣😚🙃😜

Thankyou @Former-Member I do read but can't always respond - but I do hear you my friend - just difficult at present to believe

@Faith-and-Hope How are you today? Yesterday was pretty huge for you in the scheme of things and I have been thinking of you and how you are travelling today after you showed so much strength and courage in your appointment with WH yesterday I also wanted to let you know that I am here for you also - I know I am not always in a good 'space' but don't let that be a reason not to ask for support yourself when you need it - some people are worth the extra effort Hon