Am Not Coping

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope but the struggle seems to be ongoing despite days that are better so because trying takes a lot of energy & in the long-term doesn't seem to make much difference I'm selfish enough to stop trying knowing my brain can't really be fixed. It is not ok to have this much & still be doing badly

I can see how difficult it is for you. It's hard to reach out for help or want to keep trying when you feel you don't deserve it @Sam3. It's lovely to hear you care for the needs of others but I can confidently say there is no person, or issue too small, unworthy of support from Lifeline. I guess what keeps us going will be different for everyone and it's hard feeling lost and not knowing how or when you will find that purpose. When things feel hopeless for me I turn to the warmth of a cup of tea😊

Take good care,

Sphinxly 🐣

Are you seeing a counsellor @Sam3 ? Working out strategies for when you feel this way, and a safety plan, are a good idea, because it's when our feelings are flat that it's hard to make the decisions we need to help ourselves.

Are you on medication ? A need for meds review can present with these feelings (or lack of feelings) too.

Sitting with you .....

@Sam3 It’s sounding tough. I know the lack of concentration , or none at all.

It’s hard trying to find many who understand our fried brains, but we certainly do here.

Take care where you can. 💙💙

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope yes I have a counsellor but she doesn't seem understand the intensity & just told me to keep doing mindfulness meditation which I have done daily for a long time now. Yes I'm on 2 medications - recently went off one that helps with ruminations for 3 weeks but resumed it 2 weeks ago with some positive impact. It's the lack of hope & the will to keep trying to combat constant overthinking that gets to me. I know I'm not the kind of person who can get by/through this. Just made myself a cup of tea @Former-Member Thanks.

Thanks @Maggie How do you find a way to keep going?

Some days I don’t @Sam3 . It’s like @Faith-and-Hope , some days you just breath through, and that’s hard enough to do.

It changes, even though you believe it never will. Emotions don’t stay the same.

Deep breathing, it calms you mind.

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Maggie Been at my parents' all afternoon - did their washing, got some in and put more out, flipped the mattres, changed the bed and moved a few things around to make it easier for Mum to get around. Toby was a little pest - he thought he was helping make the bed but was really not lol Mum just kept laughing so Tobes thought it was a good game (me not so much). I got their dinner on then left it to Dad to finish. Then I called in to see my sister - a short visit because it was getting late. She is not sure what time they will be picking up Kitten tomorrow but I told her to call me and I would her part way if her partner does not finish his work in time.

Missed the chemist so will need to go tomorrow but got a couple of things I needed at the shop. Mum paid me back for what I got for her today and gave me a little extra so now I will be okay until pay day 👍

Settling in now for some much needed rest. I will go back to my parents' place in a couple of days to help some more - still need to vacuum and also forgot to get the carpet cleaner I need to borrow to clean the rug from school after mine died a couple of weeks ago.

@Faith-and-Hope I hope you have gotten some rest yourself today and are feeling a little better. So glad the COVID test was negative but not good you are unwell - my thoughts are with you Hon

Love and hugs to all here and the hope there has been some good in your days

Well done @Zoe7 you've been very productive - you've earned your rest

Hi @Sam3 👋