Am Not Coping

You are right @Snowie It is a massive job - so much more involved than standing in front of a bunch of kids and teaching them. Learning happens in so many areas - we are more than simply educators.

I think it is nearly time for me to head to bed Hon. I really am exhausted and have had some tears. Going to post to F&H then lay down and see how I go.

Thank you so much once again for both keeping me company and for letting me 'talk'. There is so much going on for me - a lot I can't put here but having you understand a little of the work stuff really does help.

Goodnight sweetheart - I hope you can sleep tonight too and tomorrow is filled with light and hope for you

Goodnight sweetheart @Zoe7

It has been lovely spending time with you tonight. You have kept me company too.

I hope you get some sleep tonight hon and tomorrow isn't too full on for you.

Take care 💕💕

@Zoe7

Hoping you got some sleep last night and today goes ok at work. Will be thinking of you as you tackle everything you need to today. I am sure it is an extremely long list 🤔

Los of love hon 💕💕

I am so sorry dear @Zoe7 I am only seeing this now...

"Unfortunately not much sleep @Myboy but need to continue to push through today without any more. I have done the shopping I needed to do and have sprayed all the kids work I have so a little of what I needed to do is done. If I can get the next stage of organising that work finished then I can tackle the rest a bit at a time during the week. Still have the planning for this week and work for the class to organise as well as things needed for our meeting tomorrow after school. I was hoping to get into the garden a bit over this weekend but with sleeping nearly all day yesterday (losing a day) it won't happen. Completely overwhelmed at present but have to continue to get things done as I can.

You had an interesting night - what happened?"

I use my phone and once I click on the first of the unread replies they no longer show as un read above so I do tend to miss osme 😞

It appears that you had an extremely productive weekend, and enjoyed the lovely @Snowie 's company whilst kicking the goals, well done!

Saturday was interesting as my boy had gone to a party with the intention to stay the night. As expected he called to be picked up so thankfully my bf was at my place and we both collected him as well as his car. Needless to say he was very worse for wear and I am so happy that he called me to pick him up.

@Anastasia I am really glad your boy called you to pick him up - that was a really responsible thing to do 👍 I hope he recovered okay too

I did get some things accomplished but still so much to go. It didn't help that I was sick most of the weekend and di not get any real quality sleep in as a result. Saturday night was the worst but still feeling unwell today and was sent home from work - still have a fever so will be resting all day.

This has been one hell of a year - COVID aside - still too much to be happening and going through. I counted 6 deaths in the last 3 months ...my best friend as well as both people I knew or family members of people I know ...and my sister's cat. My own baby now having cancer and the fear of losing her or Toby. I don't know how much more I can deal with. The year began badly with falling over at home and re-injuring my back then illness along the way, a couple of visits to ED, dislocating my finger, Cat biting me and ending up in hospital and now unwell again. I really feel like I am falling apart and am not sure how much longer I can go 'pulling on the mask' and 'getting through'. Overwhelmed is an understatement but need to keep swimming... @Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Sam3 and anyone else reading ...it is what it is hey!

Oh @Zoe7 what next!!!!!

One hell of a year for you is quite possibly an understatement Zoe. I am sorry for all of it and now to learn that you have a fever and have come home sick. 😞

It is probably your body taking over telling you to rest 😞

I like that... "keep swimming" yes that is a good analogy. Putting some chicken soup on now to serve you a warm bowl for your soul. Love and gentle hugs xoxo

Sorry to hear that you came home with a fever @Zoe7 I am very much hoping that you are resting hon and that you even managed some sleep.

Yes it has been a hell of a year for you 😞

Lots of love and hugs 💕💕

❤️🦋 @Zoe7 ......hugs ❣️

@Anastasia @Snowie @Faith-and-Hope Slept as much as I could this afternoon but up and down swapping over ice packs to help then got too cold so snuggled up in the doona until then too hot... presently awake (obviously) and able to sit up but have absolutely no energy, aching, shaky, headache and nausea - so no doubt I will have to lay down again soon. Meds haven't helped Plenty of Toby snuggles but the poor little fella has been pushed away a lot - he knows I am not good but him trying to lick me well has not been helpful Need to give the fur babies their night biscuits soon (going to do that early while I can) then back to the couch. Feeling very sorry for myself and cannot believe I am this unwell again ...life is just plain sucky at the moment

You poor thing dear @Zoe7

Do you need to see a Dr hun? I'm worried about you. Yes, plain sucky it is xxxx