Am Not Coping

That is super tough @Jezabell89 Sorry you are feeling that way today - it is so hard when we don't have our loved ones with us especially on special days like today. It is okay that you feel like that - most people would in your situation ...love and hugs for you today Hon

Hey @Zoe7 ! Thank you very much for your kind words. I have people around me but I feel so isolated. It really does suck. Bit I know it will get better. Might call the MHAT number and see what they say.

That sounds like a good idea @Jezabell89 Just having someone to talk to when you feel like this is valuable. I understand what you mean when you say you are with people but feel so isolated - when those thoughts take over it can make us feel so lonely in a room full of people - that is not at all easy. Have a chat to the MHAT and let us know how it goes

Hi @Zoe7 ! So I spoke to MHAT. They were lovely. Giving some insight into my Illness and myself. I've got so many good things happening for me it just feels strange to feel so low. We decided I would call back if needed. But I think I should be fine.

Well done @Jezabell89 . I'm glad MHAT were so helpful. Makes you more likely to phone them again when in need. I hope your low mood lifts soon, to enable you to make the most of all the good things which are happening for you lately.

hi @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 thank you for your kind words, they are really uplifting.

hope today is not a teary one @Faith-and-Hope you're such a wonderful mum it should be a happy one for you but I understand how things can get complicated.

how did lunch go today @Zoe7 , how are you going?

I saw my friend & it was nice.

That is really great that they helped you @Jezabell89 and that you can call back if you need. It is hard concentrating on the positives when you are feeling low but that is exactly when you need to recognise them as well. I find that hard as well but you calling MHAT was also a positive - well done you

Lunch was lovely @BryanaCamp My sister is such a great cook and the meal was amazing. My Mum was not very well though so she could not eat very much. I don't think she will be at work for a few days - she shouldn't have come down today but she wanted to - think she was just happy to get out of the house.

I am so glad you saw your friend and it was nice. I am super happy that you didn't cancel and actually got yourself out to meet him - you should be pleased with yourself too Hon - I know that you really didn't feel up to it but you pushed yourself and that is awesome.

hi @Zoe7 that's wonderful you had a lovely lunch. my sis is a good cook too, I'm so glad you enjoyed it. It's a shame your mum is not well but nice she made the effort, I'm sure she was happy to see you.

Yes I thought of you, "gotta get out fo the house" when I was feeling sooky! But made it out. had a few beers. off to my nephew's birthday dinner tonight.

Not as teary @BryanaCamp, but they are lurking. A lack of diagnosis and therefore treatment. has caused massive changes to our life, which are becoming permanent, in that some things can’t / won’t be reversed, even if an intervention were to happen now. It is something I have to come to terms with because it is what it is, but changes aren’t always for the better or worse ..... sometimes they are just different, and new Lessing’s can be found in them. I think it’s the inevitable feelings of anger, frustration, disappoint and unintended (as in not intentionally relinquished) loss that are not easy to process, especially as it’s still all so open-ended. But what can you do ? The nature of this illness is hidden and not clearly defined. It may never be diagnosed either, so I have to find ways to get on with my new reality.

Tears are “par for the course”, and are part of the healing, so I tend to just accept them when they are around.

Thank you though, and yes, less teary today 😏🌷