Am Not Coping

hi @Faith-and-Hope hope you enjoy your art history class

hi @Zoe7 take it easy today, hope you get a nice nap in.

I'm feeling very demotivated today, trying to write a job application & just can't muster the enthusiasm to sell myself..again.

Awwww hugs @BryanaCamp. That’s hard, but understandable.

thanks @Faith-and-Hope you're such a sweety. Hope class was some really stimulating "me-time". You sure deserve it

@BryanaCamp Hope you got some of that application done. It is so hard when you can't seem to find the right things to say and even harder when you need to 'sell' yourself and simplay can't think of anything positive but take the great work you do volunteering and the amaing person we see here ...always supporting others with kind words and encouoragement - that all makes you pretty special Hon.

thank you for the compliment @Zoe7 it's really kind of you. I never think of myself in that way.

I've mashed together a lot of cut & paste for the application & will polish it tomorrow. I'll get it in by the due date.

Do you have time for a nap before the ceremony?

Just what I was about to ask @Zoe7 @BryanaCamp

No nap time for me @BryanaCamp GP was late today and my appointment also went well overtime. It was good to catch up with her though ...she is a real talker and we have our dogs in common so we usually have some fun dog stories.

I am sure your application will be fine Hon - sometimes having that little distance from these things help as well - so good that you will look at it again tomorrow.

@Faith-and-Hope @BryanaCamp @BlueBay @Owlunar @outlander @Sans911 @Teej @CheerBear @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Adge @Former-Member @Former-Member @Maggie and all I have missed...

Had my GP appointment. It went quite long today - longer than it has been for a while. My BP is up a bit again but not anything to worry about. Also had my flu shot and had my lungs checked ...a bit of asthma again most likely with a burn off that has made it really smokey at work and the cold weather combining.

We talked about my sleep (or lack of it) over the last few weeks and that my pdoc has increased my night meds again. I did talk to her about how I have been feeling and between her and my pdoc they are going to monitor that. The one thing I could say is that I know I am going down hill again but am doing everything I can to stop that slide. I will see her again in 2 weeks unless I am feeling okay to cancel that appointment and see her in a month as we have been doing. I will be seeing either her or my pdoc at least once a week until this passes ...and I hope it does with more sleep over the next couple of weeks.

She also changed one of my tummy meds to try to get some relief in the short term and then when it settles back down we can go back to the preventative one again. It has been causing me to not eat much - especially during the day - as I cannot know when the pain will hit. That of course is affecting my energy levels and in turn my mood. It was good to see her today and hope I get some relief from all of that.

I really do not want to go to this ceremony tonight but am going to have a shower and force myself to go. Hopefully a shower will make me feel a little more refreshed and then I will be able to get through the couple of hours better. If I had any sick leave I would probably have taken the next couple of days off but as I don't I will need to get to work, make it through, get to the weekend and try to reset again.

@Zoe7 .... 🦋🌷

They are beautiful @Faith-and-Hope I will take that image with me tonight

Off to feed fur babies and then leave - will try to catch ypu later if I am okay when I come home. Have a good evening Hon