Am Not Coping

sorry to hear things are so hard for you right now @Zoe7 .

Feeling let down is like a big betrayal to me which I find devastating, I can only imagine what you're feeling.

Good on you for soldiering on at work, it is important to protect your well-earned reputation.

Hugs x

@Faith-and-Hope @BryanaCamp @outlander @Sans911 @BlueBay @Teej @CheerBear @MDT @eth @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Adge @Snowie @Maggie @Former-Member @oceangirl and all following along...

I left work earlier than usual for a Tuesday. We usually have to stay until 4.30 but I had nothing I could do as I left the work at home that I could do. Spent the time at home doing some work and will finish it off tomorrow.

One of the teachers I share a room with come out with 'we have to find a way to keep you here next term' - it was out of the blue as we were just sitting in our room working. I offered up my suggestion for them needing a 1/2 teacher next term and she was very interested in that suggestion. She also works part-time on one of the other 1/2s so I know I would have plenty of support. Apparently 2 of the 1/2 classes will need teachers next term so I am a little more confident that it may be possible - everything crossed for the remainder of the term now that it could happen. (Yes @Teej and @Faith-and-Hope - no peeing for the rest of this term lol).

I really struggled to get through today - could have fallen asleep several times and did infact catch my eyes closing in one session. The same teacher that asked how she could help also asked me how I was today - very tired was the answer but I got through the day.

I am feelng a little better than yesterday but still really low. I definitely need sleep and that will hopefully give me a lttle more energy to deal with some of the stuff I need to.

Tomorrow afternoon/evening I have an event I need to attend related to the panel I was on so I expect after DBT I will need to have a sleep/rest before getting organised to go to that. If I hadn't been on the panel I would possibly not go but it will be good to see the recipients get their awards - they are all really deserving of them.

I hope everyone has had an okay day and seen at least a little light in your day.

Hi @Zoe7 👋 💚💕

The thought of you being able to stay at this school is very comforting ..... soooo hope it comes through for you, and sooner rather than later, as I am sure that will be affecting you too somewhat.

Its lovely to hear your co-workers looking out for you, and yes, seeing the awards presented is good for you I think.

@Former-Member above post for you too Hon

I do feel like it will be possible for at least another term @Faith-and-Hope I know the uncertainty of what happens after this term is also playing on my mind ...as much as I am trying not to let it it has certainly added to other things going on

I do need to go to the awards ceremony tomorrow - it is going to make it a very long day but something I think I need to do for myself as well. There will be people there I know from previous meetings so I won't feel too anxious about it. I think I will need a calmer beforehand though ith how I have been feeling - that decision I will make tomorrow afternoon though.

How has your day been Hon? How did the appointment go this morning?

Thinking of you and sending warm wishes @Zoe7 . With your struggles at the moment it's really good to see there are small positives happening. Well, not so small really. I hope your suggestion of taking 1/2 next term reaches those that decide. And that you get pleasure from seeing the awards presented tomorrow night if you get there. It would be really good to see the fruition of your work on the panel - might boost you a bit. Lots of love xx

Thanks @eth Th teacher I spoke to today is on the leadership team so I am sure it will get to where it needs to be and then just see what happens from there. Ultimately it is down to the department but I am sure a recommendation from the school will carry some weight. It does give me some hope that I can stay there for at least another term though and then see what happens afterwards. I would love to stay there all year - but again that is out of my hands.

I will get to the awards ceremony - it is a late afternoon/evening event so I will have time after DBT to rest enough and sleep if I need to. I will most likely have a shower in the afternoon to feel fresher for the evening. I won't be able to take my meds at the normal time although I suspect I will be tire enough that having them later may not affect me much.

Going to get dinner organised here soon and then settle in for a really quiet - and hopefully restfull night. Will head over and check on your day soon

I hope you stay in your current school @Zoe7 .

It would be great if you had the whole year there

I'm not up to much atm just doing lots of washing

I hope you sleep well tonight and have a good day tomorrow

Thinking of you and you're doing great

Thinking of you and sending warm wishes @Zoe7

hello @oceangirl , @eth , @Faith-and-Hope , @BryanaCamp