Am Not Coping

Plenty of rest and an early night again @MDT Cold here too so snuggled in the doona with Toby

@Zoe7 💜💕

Hello @Zoe7 💜

@Maggie

@Former-Member How are you doing Hon? Been thinking of you a lot but wanted to give you the space as I know it can feel overwhelming for you at times. That does not mean you are not in my thoughts as you are cared for so much here

Hey @Zoe7 I don’t know what to say 💜

Hey @Snowie i said I’d be back.dinner is cooked. Have a relative coming over. Oh my gosh. Last to e it was six hours of how dis functional our family is. And I thought it was normal

@Zoe7 back later

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You don't need to say anything Hon - just having you here is enough @Former-Member

I presume life is still really hard for you but wanted you to know I am always just a tag away (even if it takes me a little time to respond) - you are important to me @Former-Member and I do care how you are going

I'll look out for you @Former-Member

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Maggie @MDT @TAB @Sans911 @Snowie @CheerBear @Teej @eth @Bunniekins @Adge @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @BlueBay and all following along...

Ok - 2 things happened today (and something yesterday) - the first was pretty special and I will go into that further soon but the second was I HAD PREPS AGAIN ALL DAY lol This time I was on one class for the whole day and despite how I was feeling we got through the day. They were actually pretty good - less energiser bunnies and more chocolate bunnies today - think the end of term and they were too tired lol I actually had a good day with them did lots of craft things and kept them occupied for the while day. Apparently the releif techer they were to have on the class called to say they weren't coming and it was too late to try someone else - the principal had already called numerous people and found it hard to cover all those teachers still out sick today (7 away today).

The first thing that happened was pretty big - for me at least. Every week someone is awarded a special award for something they have done that stands out. This week I was given that award and the assistant principal began to cry when she was explaining to me what it was for. She said that everyone started clapping when it was announced last night in the staff meeting (which I was not at of course as it is my day off). She said she hadn't seen that response from everyone for a long time. She went on to list all the reasons I was given the award and I started to tear up as well. She also talked about the culture of the school and how much I contributed to the happy environment. She also made a point of saying that this is the kind of environment I deserve to be in - as if she knew what I had to deal with last year. It did make me wonder if she knows more than I have said (which is very little). I know she knows that I had been off work for over 2 years but not exactly why ...but that has not affected the way I am treated there and it is wonderful to be at that school. It certainly has given me a lift going into the holidays

The thing that happened yesterday was I found out that the teacher I team taught with when I was at that other school (the one that thought she was better than everyone else, knew everything and treated the kids badly) has resigned ....apparently because of lack of support from the principal. I instantly felt that karma had bitten both the teacher and principal and once again was so grateful to be out of there. I know thinking that way is probably not the right thing but they both hurt me incredibly and I do feel like they have put themselves in that situation and in a way feel vindicated with what I had to deal with.

All the news over the last couple of days (including some more tonight that I can't talk about just yet) have certainly tested my resolve as well as been super supportive - waves of emotions - but the positives of today (and yesterday) are certainly promonent in my thinking tonight - whilst I also try to take in some sad news and process that at the same time. Positives forst for me though - and who would have thought this time last year that I would be saying that!