Am Not Coping

@Former-Member I'll tell you if it becomes an issue and need to stop the conversation - ok - what happened?

ok if your sure @Zoe7

today as if it wasnt hard enough already, as i had a really horrbile night with visions and thinking things are there when they arent really there. so didnt sleep to well, myanxiety is sky high as my sister has a cold and everytime she coughs she sets my anxiety off so all day pretty much as mum was at work so ia had her all day incuding taking her to the drs

but when mum got home, i was invited out with a couple of people so i decided it might be what i needed and took the opportnity to go out.

and it started off good, you know general chit chat how you going that sort of thing and i was glad to have gotten out but then as they know about my mental health conditions they said hows your counselling going, have you improved that sort of thing whihc i didnt mind answering they were pretty generl questions but when i said today i went to my gp and she thinks im pushing my mental health professional away as i just dont want to go to them and so i keep resheduling. and she asked my why im diong that and then me and my 'friends' got into abit and i meantioned my gp has been pestering me to get a blood test to check my thyroid as it could be partly to blame for my depression.

and my friends really took that opportunity didnt they and they started saying well maybe the diagnoses were wrong, theres probably nothing wrong with you at all.

and when i was telling them about some of the symptoms they said well maybe your jsut doing it for attention and theres nothing wrong with you at all cause they never get those symptoms.

maybe its all just in my head and i shouldnt worry about it.

then we got into blood tests and i said i really dont like needles, i cant get over the fear and they pretty much just scoffed at me and said to grow up and im just being stupid and im the one damaging my own health

@utopia my cocky isnt working too well 😞 i cant get some of the features right... dont worry though ill get there

and @Zoe7

becasue my Gp keeps telling me to get the test, i think she thinks im playing too much and that im lying 😞

@Former-Member It really sounds like these 'friends' do not have a clue abour MI at all and cannot understand what anyone goes through when they are 'suffering' from a MI - sometimes when people don't understand they try to pretend it isn't 'real'.

do you know what the matter worse though @utopia @Zoe7 they ahve been through depression and anxiety themselves thats why i though they would understand, maybe i am just a freak whos just imaging things that arent there

I bet they haven't had to deal with all the 'other stuff' you have had to though @Former-Member - I may be wrong but it seems like they are very naive still otherwise they would not be treating your MI so trivally.

i dont know @Zoe7

im terrified 😞

am i freak @Zoe7 @utopia

do you think im imagining these things

Hi @Former-Member

Most GPs will take blood tests to rule out thyroid problems. They need to rule out medical reasons first. I had to have them, I'd imagine most of us have had blood tests before. My son's girlfriend is 21 and is petrified of needles and takes a support person with her every time because for her her thyroid levels are on the edge of normal. It's the best way to help with a mental health diagnosis of depression because sometimes malfunctioning thyroids can add or create depression.

I hope this helps. I'm sure your GP has your best interests at heart.

It would be hard to have those conversations with friends you thought would be more supportive. I also know that it's a hard age for people to really have developed empathy skills for someone else even if they have similar experiences. My kids tell me this too. I'm sorry you didn't get the support you were looking for.