Am Not Coping

ok well it is the 2nd @MDT lol havent had new glasses in years, I mix and match to get ones that work for one thing or another

@Sam3 Pleased to meet you too. Hi @Zoe7 and everyone passing through today.

Hi @Zoe7

That was a great party you organised for New Years Eve - and a Happy New Year for you too - I hope this happens for you this year as you get back to work after the holidays - I know you have a passion for teaching and I truly hope you get back to it as soon as possible

Yes - one night can knock us down - I dreamed a lot last night - I often do but don't always remember what they were - last night I had several really clear dreams I remember and feel tired after all that noctural work -

I hope you have a decent session with your appointment and wishing you the best

You are always there for people - always there for me - I had a lot happen last year - some things still unresolved but I got up in the right frame of mind to start doing those things I couldn't seem to manage last year and already have some things in order - good start

I hope that headache has moved on - and I wish you the best day possible

Dec

yes @MDT last time I chose work glasses over others. I used to leave a trail of them behind me I just break them eventually these days lol, yes they are cheap but choice of frames not what it used to be. .. still they seem to be cheapest yes

Hi @Faith-and-Hope @TAB @MDT @Owlunar @Maggie @oceangirl @Former-Member @Snowie @outlander @Sans911 @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Teej @CheerBear and all those following along with me the last few months...

I had my psych appointment and it went really well. We discussed a lot today - and most of it was positive. She is so happy with the way I am going and I have to agree with her mostly. We talked about my motivation to do things and also that I still have days when it is too much but I am letting those days just happen around me and not placing too much emphasis on me not being able to do things. I did say that if I have anything planned on those days that I can still get enough energy to do them but on some days when I have nothing planned then they become more rest days and that is okay. She was happy that I am making a conscious choice to have those rest days when I need them but als having enough motivation to do even the smaller things like cleaning up Toby's toys.

We also talked a little about work and she thinks I am doing really well in not thinking about it too much - there is nothing I can do until it all happens so there is no point stressing about it until that time.

The biggest breakthrough I have had is how I am dealing with the trauma and triggers - it feels like that is all more in the background than it ever has been and despite it still being so much of who I am it is also not taking up every waking (and sleeping) thought. Being able to sleep and regularly getting 7-8 hours has made the world of difference there also - it is so much easier to deal with the negative stuff when I have slept and am not tired constantly.

There was some other stuff we talked about also but that will be ongoing over a few sessions - nothing I can really discuss here presently.

The last thing we touched on was just how important the forum has been for me and how much support I have had - that has made so much difference. She is very much supportive also of the positive impact the forum has had on me and we both agree it has been such a lifeline for me - and I thank every single member that has contributed to that for me. I think we sometimes underestimate just how much the support here does help us in other parts of our lives - it is such a soft place to fall - filled with empathetic and compassionate people that truly care about each other - I am so lucky to be part of this community and am grateful everyday that I have somewhere I feel I belong. Thank you everyone for your support over the past 4 weeks with my buddy F&H being overseas - it has meant so much to me with missing her so much that you have all stepped in to give me some additional support - makes it just that little bit easier to navigate this time without her being able to post. Consious also here that it is so much harder for her but she will be back with us with stories to tell and adventures to write about in no time.

Wishing everyone light in their day and peace in their hearts

@Sam3 I didn't want to tag you in the last post as I didn't want you to feel like you had to read - the people I tagged have been following my journey for a while now but certainly happy for you to read as well.

Thinking of you and hoping today is a little better than the last few days

It's always good to hear Good News @Zoe7 well done !!

Thanks @TAB Our chats have really helped me also - it has been lovely connecting with you again over the last couple of months

I see the ciggies stopping is going well still - keep up the great work Mr. Tabby Cat

Whata great post @Zoe7

And how great that you have had so much to share that is positive and authicated by your therapist - it has been a battle but you have learned to cope with so much and to let a lot of the "stuff" float around you on those awkward days

I am glad we have all been here for you - and to fill the space left by @Faith-and-Hope while she is overseas - this is what the forum is about - a soft place to land - a safe place to share

And you have helped me to open up esp over the last weeks - it has been great for me too

Up and onwards at your own pace Zoe - I am so glad to know you

Dec