Am Not Coping

Night @Zoe7 @Shaz51 hope your time off is good

good night @Pepsimax

Night @Shaz51 sleep well

Hi @Zoe7

What a bummer - and how rotten to find out about your posters after your Goodbye speech and flowers - disappointing hey -

Not good - I guess you were away for a while and there are people who just take things no one seems to own - seems to own - they were yours and obviously valuable

Maybe you will find them - I hope so - but it must give you as bad feeling after all the work you have done to get back into teaching - I am so sorry

Posters cost a lot of money - I know - and are often great teaching tools

And then you had a busy time shopping for Christmas - if I eventually get around to that I will be busy too -

And of course - today - I must send a Happy Birthday to Toby - of course he doesn't know but you do and the rest of us do and we wish him the best

Happy Birthday TobyDec

Hi @Shaz51

One foot in front of the other as you said - that's the best we can do - in fact no matter what - whatever our circumstances that is the best we can do - more than that and people can fall on their face - I know - I have done that

I hope the 10 days you and Mr Shaz are having off go well - I have got the feeling Mr Shaz will get anxious about that - I know he can't help it and it must be horrible for him feeling like that - horrible for you too

But you will be able to see your Mum - I hope she is going okay - improving - I didn't post much yesterday so I am a little bit out of touch but still thinking of you

Dec

Thanks @Maggie

Yes - a migraine is draining and yesterday I was pretty exhausted - I slept a lot

But thanks - it is very humid here after an excessive amount of rain - it's a big tropical

I think today will be better - I slept a lot yesterday and then all night and feel okay this morning

All the best today Maggie - I hope you have the best day you can

Dec

I hope the posters are returned. @Zoe7

@Pepsimax

Getting stuff down around the house helps.

@Shaz51 10 days hols .... Great idea.

@Owlunar

Sorry about migraines and difficult time of year.

@Sans911

Hope you ALL have a good day.

I need to get things done.

Thanks @Owlunar and @Appleblossom The great poster hunt will begin tomorrow while I am sorting out some other stuff that is still there. There was a whole lot of games too but I am not as worried about them - I know most of them can be replaced but I certainly don't have the money to do that - games are not cheap either - all very disappointing

I can only wait until tomorrow and ask people if they know where they have been moved to and/or stored and hope for the best.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom @Owlunar @Pepsimax @Shaz51 @Sans911 @Snowie @Teej @CheerBear @TheVorticon @Former-Member (all all I have forgotten - my brain is fried today )

I have come home from a long morning and afternoon so far but I have got something for my Dad and finished with all appointments for the day. I have so much housework to get done but hanging out the washing is the priority - need to get something dry to wear tomorrow lol.

I don't have any appointments for 2 weeks but I think the break will be good also. My first appointment is the 2nd January with my psych and then DBT, pdoc and gp the week after - all back pretty quickly this year so I won't be left alone at all. My GP today reminded me that I can call her if I need but we both agree that I am in a much better place this break than I have ever been and I probably will not need that extra support - it was great to be able to say that too

We looked at our diary cards for this last module and it is the first time I could say I have had a couple of months of being quite stable. There have been a few ups and downs but on th whole those times have only lasted 1-2 days as opposed to the weeks I was having - this is all progress and it did feel good to both recognise and admit that. I am definitely not 'healed' - don't think that ever happens but I am beginning to feel much more like I do have a future and that is a massive statement for me to make.

Throughout this whole saga with the principal and going back to school I have been able to hold my head up high, put up with everything she has thrown at me - and guess what - I not only survived but found I still had that passion for teaching (something else I thought was gone forever). I can honestly say that I am proud of the person I am and how I have dealt with all this - who would have thought that only a couple of months ago.

Life is by no means perfect but I have a renewed sense that I will make it and that is gold right now.

Reading your post has been a highlight of my day. Go you @Zoe7, in so many ways ❤