Am Not Coping

haha yes it does @Shaz51. The car looks like a kids sandpit there is so much sand from all of us lol

@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 Heading off forum now - will fall into bed pretty soon afterwards methinks. Love and hugs to you both

Thank you @Zoe7 I will remember that when I need it.

Please do tag me when you need @Appleblossom - only too happy to be here for you Hon - you have been around since I joined and I love your input arounf the forum - as you have said - we all bring different experiences and viewpoints and they are all needed and welcomed

Thank you so much for such kind words @Sans911 It is always lovely to hear from you (I often see you under the support button and that has the same effect )

It is feeling like I can do this more now than in the beginning but I know there is still a long way to go. ...but if me getting back into work is helping others too then that is just an added bonus that gives me warm fuzzies.

I believe you will get back into your work too Hon - you have also come a long way and the volunteering work you are doing is not only very impressive but will also help you with work in the future. I know you don't think you will ever get back into the kind of work that you once did and loved but I am sure there is a path out there for you. Who would have thought even a few months ago that I would request to move schools - it is such a huge step for me and I need to believe that something better will come of it ...holding onto that belief for you too sweet @Sans911

I got through today okay. The lesson this afternoon fell apart a bit towards the end but I honestly just wanted to get through to the end of the day today. I sat in with all the other teachers while they worked in small groups - nothing I could help anyone with so it was a waste of time for me - read some messages and cleared my inbox - that was about all I could do. The meeting with the prncipal and HR went okay - we are all on the same page with me wanting to move schools - somewhere hopefully closer to where I live and somewhere where it would be a fresh start with no-one knowing anything about me. I still think this is the right decision but it is scary at the same time. I will be starting new, not knowing anyone or the processes at the school - all a bit much but I am trying to think positive and remember that it has really become a toxic environment for me at this present school.

I won't know where I will be until next year as it is getting very late in the term and something has to be worked out. I hope that wherever I am sent it will be a nicer environment to work in. ...the waiting will do my head in but there is nothing I can do about that.

I am working for half a day Thursday and a full day Friday this week and then the usual Monday afternoon combined with a Tuesday full day, Thursday half day and a full day helping move things on the Friday. There are some things that I need to bring home that have been left there over the last 2 years so I will do that on that Friday also. Then that will be it and I never have to go back to that school!

@Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @BlueBay @CheerBear @Owlunar @Former-Member and all passing through or following along with my school 'adventures'...

So happy for you @Zoe7

I think the right decision was made to move to another school. It will be an anxious yime but also exciting.

So pleased for you. Xx

I know it will get to me having to wait to find out where I will be going but I will have to take it day by day - continue seeing my GP, pdoc and psych and doing DBT @BlueBay - that really is all I can do until I hear something.

Well done @Zoe7. I’m glad you survived the day, really glad hr meeting went ok. You’re getting there step by step.

Ill be crossing everything that you get a place sooner rather than later. Will you try part time or does it have to be full time?

Im channeling some @Faith-and-Hope (I’m so sorry I can’t tag you at the moment, I’ve been really struggling for it to bring up your name, I know you’ll read this though 💜🤗).

for you Zoe, from F&H and me.......taking the opportunity to post on her behalf and she can’t stop me 😘😝💜.......I know she loves paper quilling art.