Am Not Coping

@Zoe7that inner strength of yours must be in super drive hon, shows you have got what it takes to get back to work in the capacity you want to.

The kids are going fine. Izzy is still being an escape artist...the little devil!!

My days are just about getting through at the moment. Sometimes I manage a bit but really doing the bare minimum

Well Hon - I think if I can get through this then you can get to somewhere similar in the future as well - I never thought I would get back to work @Snowie and as hard as it is right now I have made it. The hoops I have to jump through are ridiculous but I am not going to let this principal beat me - as much as she is trying to.

Izzy is such a sweetheart but also such a naughty girl My parents' dogs are escape artists as well and when they get out they run a long way away - naughty puppy dogs!

Dropping my Dadat the airport ..... back soon-ish .....

Hopefully one day @Zoe7. The main things is that you are jumping through those hoops and showing her how much you can do this even though it must be difficult for you.

Izzy is on supervised backyard outings now!!

haha sounds like Izzy is harder work than the kids atm @Snowie I am lucky that Cat and Toby stay in the backyard - I did extend the fence higher so Cat would stay in - it allows me to keep the door open (when I am home) so they can go in and out as they please. Toby usually stays pretty close still - especially now I am away more. Friday morning he took himself to his bed in the spare room whilst I was getting ready and stayed there until I left. The precious little thing looked sad as if he knew I was going to be away all day. They certainly pull at our heart strings.

Izzy is harder work then the kids @Zoe7!!

Awwwe, poor Toby must miss you when you are out hon, especially since you are out more often now. They certainly do pull at our heart strings and make us feel guilty for leaving them.

Knowing I am coming home to my jumpy boy who is so excited to see me is gold @Snowie He looks like he is smiling also and it makes me smile. It doesn't matter how hard the day has been - to come home to that is a god send. Even Cat is snuggly - but that may just be because it is usually feeding time lol

I just had a conversation with my Dad - he has been ringing most days after I work - he is so angry about all this - so is my Mum and sister but I have to tell them all that I can't do their anger as well as my own - it is so tough to deal with. They do back off when I tell them to though - I have enough to deal with without having them adding to it. Sometimes that last thing I want to do is talk about it - I can't change anything and talking won't help.

Imaging you coming home to Toby and cat makes me smile. It is so good that you have them to come home too. Doesn't matter how crappy or good your day has been, they are there without judgement to welcome you home

I can imagine they are angry about the whole situation hon. I imagine they are concerned about you and how work/principal are treating you. It is great that you have that support there, but I can understand you not wanting to talk about it especially when you are living it.

What it does cement for me is that I can never tell them what I have been through @Snowie - I knew that already but seeing their anger at this proves that even more for me. It is so difficult to hold everything inside and I am so grateful for this forum and my forum friends who allow me to get some of this out ...and you are so right - I have my babies to come home to.

Is your hubby being a support to you Hon or is it still too hard letting him in?

I am glad you have this forum hon to get some of it out @Zoe7. It is extremely difficult telling our family what we have been through and holding it inside ourselves.

Hubby has been great through all of this, more than I deserve. I have tried to tell him everything and knows that my meds are not agreeing with me