Am Not Coping

Wow! Do you have air con @Shaz51

I think it was approximately 35 today and now have 2 air cons on to cool the house down. I’m a bit of a sook though. I don’t cope with heat too well. 💖

we have one aircon @Former-Member, @Zoe7, we have the bedrooms doors closed and the fans on

Thank goodness you have one @Shaz51 Thats really good of you to clean your mothers house in the heat. I used to clean my mothers house years ago, but I’m not well enough to these days. I find it enough to clean my own. Plus, unfortunately I can’t have contact with her, due to deep family issues. Really hard, but necessary for my health. 🌷🌸

Need to head off for now @Shaz51 @Zoe7 Might be back later. 💜💖

Take care.

Sorry I missed you @Former-Member - got caught up here getting dinner organised early so I could spend some time planning early too. I hope you pop back in for at least a peek a boo later.

Hi @Shaz51 That is some hot weather you are still having - hope it eases up your way soon for you my sister.

Missing you tonight @Faith-and-Hope Hope you are ok Hon

Just flat out and problem solving @Zoe7 .... tradesman who was supposed to be here forgot tonight, so have rescheduled late tomorrow night because I have appointments early evening ..... grrr ... but sorted now.

Yes, business assignment submitted, but I was up very late with that last night, hence being available when the kids called .... and apparently Mr. did get very testy with the airport staff, so I am not the least surprised they were uncaring, unsupportive, and unhelpful .... just sorry that the kids were caught up in the whole saga and probably feeling as tumbled by it all as I was today.

My bil and sil are obviously enabling my Mr. as much as they are able to, and I just don't understand. They know the extent of his e.d. behaviours, and yet are now so far behind him in what he is doing to tell him to tell me to leave their Christmas presents here for them to make more room in our luggage for a couple of months worth of his regimented food menu items .... grrrr .... so I am going to leave their gifts here, and if they don't bother taking them back overseas with them when they leave, I can't help that .... the whole bl%dy thing is a mess and I am not going to take responsibility for it, or them. I did my bit, and taking out the gifts will give me more room for art supplies as well as more Mr. foods .... the shame of it is that there are other kids caught up in the mess too .... and surely they can see the incongruity of it all .... how does it help them to understand what is functional and what is dysfunctional ?? Sooooo weird, and I can't solve it .... officially sticking my head in the sand and leaving them all to it .... gah !!

I couldn't find my plate for printmaking this morning, and left home without it, hoping that I had left it in my art locker at uni .... nope .... but I did submit the business assignment and another major art piece, then came home again to look for the plate. Eventually found it, but was then under the pump to complete the prints required to pass the printmaking unit ... but I did it 🤗 .... more diary work to finish for that yet, before the unit is passed.

Effectively it's all just diary work from here though .... apart from printmaking notes, so I think I will be okay. It will mean two more late nights to get it done though, and then another late night packing on Friday .... and then I am heading west on the weekend.

Think I will be sleeping on the plane .....

Oh dear Hon - what a day

You can't do anymore than you are already doing in regards to Mr. and his unreasonable directives so at least getting some space for your art supplies to take with you is all you can do. The behaviour of your bil and sil both on their own and in regards to your Mr. are there's to deal with and as annoying as it is you can't change that either. I can imagine the kids would have been anxious with the whole airport proceedings and to hear your voice would have soothed them somewhat - so nice that you have that connection and love for them Hon

Although you still have things to complete I have no doubt you will get it all done. I remember when you leave for the west so know you don't have much time left to complete your coursework and then pack - but you can certainly do it and as you said - sleep on the plane. The next few days after you head west are going to feel like a whirlwind too so lots of self-care when you can. I can't believe it is only a week until you leave Do you have a date that you expect to return or is that not sorted yet?

Peek a boo 👀👋 @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope

Have been really tired and cranky tonight.

Hoping to shower and get to bed a little earlier. Hmm will see.

Probably would have helped to have a big sooky cry earlier, but couldn’t at the shops.

Sad about everything. Even about not getting on with D’s dad. Just everything.

Trying to distract from “feelings”.

Yay! Cooked a proper veg, steak dinner.

Hoping both of you can relax soon and have an early night.

💜💖

Back for the start of the new uni year @Zoe7 ... I got my submission in for that yesterday too .... 👍 ... especially pleased with that cos I had to navigate some new-for-me technology, so I am starting to feel a lot less last-century .... lol

Self-care reminds me ... going to get a heat pack for the back of my neck and shoulders .... closest thing I have got to a massage, to try to get rid of some of today's tension that I can feel has parked itself there .....