Am Not Coping

I have done the shopping and now settled back in out of the rain @Faith-and-Hope I hope your project is going well and you are getting a lot done

Hi @CheerBear I see you there... sending you hugs and lots of these

Yes @Zoe7 .... working well here and achieving lots .... 💕

@CheerBear .... 😘💕

I have a little fluffball snuggled up with me so I won't be moving far for a while lol

Your niece is in her room on her bed all curled up also so she is happy. It is a miserable looking day here - drizzly rain and dark so I may not move far from the couch for the afternoon - but if that is what it takes to get through the day then so be it. There are a couple of shows I recorded earlier in the week that I can watch and maybe some more butterfly hunting on the internet so the day isn't a complete waste of time @Faith-and-Hope

I am very much feeling for you @CheerBear and what you are dealing with Hon. I have this giant feeling that work will be something I have to give up on sooner rather than later - there is only so much one can take and for this to be affecting me so much still I know I have to try to get through until the end of the term and then make some decisions. They will be hard but you have some harder ones to deal with CB and that is also not a position any of us would like to be sitting with either. Life is just hard sometimes and I understand that you are doing it particularly tough right now and all my thoughts and love are with you

Yes I feel we are sitting at a kind of crossroads @CheerBear and neither path for us is going to be a good one - it is certainly a time in our lives where it would be nice to have the answers and not have to go through all this. I know you will do the best thing for you Hon but know we are supporting you in whatever you decide. I really do feel for you and truly understand how difficult this is - sometimes circumstances lead us in one direction and we have to face it head on to deal with it but that does not make it any easier - infact it can make it harder CB - but we have both gotten through some really hard stuff so I believe you will find the courage to get through this also. Hugs and hugs

With you too CB - for whatever you need Hon

Loads of these and some of these 💐 for you @CheerBear

Hi @Zoe7

I hear you - sitting through one still moment and looking at the future can be daunting - neither forward path looks comforting - I know the thoughts myself - busy trying to make the future work and then not too sure if it will

And you are doing all this work without knowing if there is an on-going future in it - it all adds to the stress - I understand

I have been looking at the radar maps of the weather a lot lately - Melbourne has had some attrocious weather - and we are nearly into summer - and this happened last year too so it has been bleak -

I am not sure how it has been in Southern Tassie Zoe - I would imagine cloudy and cold - we had severe gales with heavy rain and I thought of you often because you don't like the wind

This would not add to serene thoughts - I am sure - but I am thinking of you

My own issues have been rather overwhelming - my daughter will be having surgery the week after next and my grand-daughter is moving back with her parents when her lease runs out - planning to move north - with her plans on-hold while she recovers from her operation - and I had this fantastic conversation with my daughter about how hard it is to move back with our parents when we have moved out and had our own choices in play without having to check on what other people have planned all the time

It went down well - I didn't intend to give advice but she remember how irritiated she was when she moved back in with me after being out on her own

Life does go on - one day at a time - I think uncertainty of the future is not easy to live with and harder for some depending on our nature and situation

Sending hugs - I found my favourite clip art for hugs has sparkles now - I like it better

everyone gets these hugs todayDec