Am Not Coping

I contacted the union yesterday as well @Faith-and-Hope @MDT @BlueBay and basically was told that these things take time when coming back off extended leave as I have been on. They officially couldn't do anything within their scope either in my case.

I requested everything that we discussed today be put in writing to me so I have a record of where this process is sitting - there are some avenues I can go through but as a very last resort and would also place more stress on me.

The Principal is not someone I want to work for that is for sure but it is now also a matter of not letting her beat me. I am feeling very low tonight and do need this day to be over as quick as it can be - tomorrow is a very big day for me in a lot of ways - I'm sure seeing the psychologist again will stir up lots of feelings then I have DBT and my GP. My pdoc is still away though so that is one less appointment I have tomorrow.

Hugs @Zoe7 ❤️ I hope you sleep well tonight. And I hope your sessions tomorrow go well. Will be thinking of you xxoo

Thank you @BlueBay Sorry not in a good place tonight - you know how that is Hon

💚💐🦋💕 @Zoe7 .....

@Zoe7 ..... ☔️💕

Waiting on the image fairies to do their thing @Faith-and-Hope

Hey @Zoe7 sorry you’ve had a set back. I know you’ve got this when it all comes together. I can but help thinking this is not about you as a person. The principal doesn’t know you as a person or as a teacher. I suspect it’s more about her getting through the end of year without having to add more 'stresses' in, especially if she is still newish to that school. It would be her ignorance and possibly inability to have empathy just now for you. I’m hoping that will change though. None of this helps you for now but I just wanted to say I hope that it changes. Sometimes it takes putting both parties putting yourself in each other’s shoes to understand things better. I write this knowing that I suspect someone I know who is a principal might do the same thing, put it off until next year because it’s all so big at the end of the year. I also know they’d start with a clean slate and be more supportive and open once the school year was over. I know this doesn’t change what you need to happen but I’m hoping it helps to not take it personally.....yet. It may be a case of her being totally inflexible and being a '*&#** too but you won’t know for a while. I really hope that hr do a good job of facilitating this in the best way for you. I totally understand you wanting (and needing) that familiarity. I would have thought that was pretty important for a smooth transition. I really hope the principal gives a bit and sorts it out.

I also get you digging your heels in because that would be my reaction too. Sitting with you and listening mostly for the background as usual. 💜🤗

Thank you @Teej What you have said makes complete sense - just hard for me to not take it personally with all that she has done and said in the past. There is the other side of how busy it gets at this time of year but these are also the things that her job entails and it is her responsibility in that position to deal with them. I have not developed any kind of respect for her from our previous interactions so that is definitely clouding my judgement of her in this instance also. All I can do is wait again and see what happens this week. If this process is not moving forward this week then I may have to consider working in another school for the remainder of this year at least - that however will be very hard for me to do as it would be totally unfamiliar and much more daunting. Let's see what happens this week. I will keep you in the loop here Hon too

I love that flower @Faith-and-Hope reminds me so much of you and the joy you bring me everyday Hon ...and the image you have put together you know has my favourite saying on it - good to remind me of that tonight. You always know just what I need 😍