Am Not Coping

Wow @Zoe7 that is a big list. Well done on getting through all of that. No doubt you are exhausted now. Big sleep needed now for Zoe

That is just this afternoon's list @Snowie Also had DBT this morning and I wasn't in any frame of mind to deal with that. I don't think I said more than a few words at check-in and then nothing afterwards. I am sure the faciitator will note that to my pdoc but I don't see her for another 3 weeks now - not the best timing for her to be away again - thank goodness my GP is still there weekly

How has your day been? Any news on hospital yet?

You’ve had a busy day @Zoe7

you’ll need a rest I’m sure 😊

Well you have accomplished a lot today @Zoe7, you should be proud of yourself hon. No not the best time for your pdoc to be away but good that you still have your Gp to talk too.

My day has been ok. Had psych this morning. No news on hospital yet.

Jammies already on @BlueBay @Snowie and bed ready to get into as soon as I am ready. Toby is asleep and I feel like joining him already but better get dinner first as I have only eaten a few dry biscuits all day. Think it will be an early night though.

I hope you hear from the hospital soon @Snowie - the sooner you can do this med change the better. How did your conversation with H go last night?

Well you should sleep well tonight @Zoe7. Have more than carrots for tea!!

Conversation went ok. Have worked out what to tell D but no point telling her until I find out when I am going in.

That is pretty huge @Snowie and I get why you are waiting until you go in to tell D - not such an easy conversation to have Carrots may be on the menu tonight - when are they not lol - but might stick with some steamed veggies as I don't want anything too heavy. I missed taco Tuesday last night (yes I am following your lead haha) as I was too flat to even cook but I can leave that until tomorrow night.

I do really need to go to the pool tomorrow as I haven't been for over a week. I also need to go to the chemist so can do both things in the morning.

My GP gave me a copy of the letter that she sent to HR - nothing in there that I did not expect but it is good that she offered me a copy - she has always been very open in her correspondence with others and showed me everything - it is part of why I trust her so much too I suppose.

Hi @Sans911 @BlueBay .... 👋💕

I hope the hospital placement comes through quickly for you too @Snowie ..... Hugs 💜❄️

I am am getting annoyed for you re the work situation too @Zoe7. It was clear the Principal wasn’t keen on giving you a place, and she is clearly not prioritising you now ..... I hope the HR person can see this and is just as frustrated with the lack of progress. Grrrrr ..... I am not at all surprised that it is starting to affect you ..... but just you keep doing what you are to keep yourself steady, and wait for HR to go in to bat for you. Your health is the most important thing of all, and you have battled too hard to let this Principal get under your skin, but taking time to be quiet (dbt class) is sensible when you are not feeling up to talking. Well done ..... that’s self-care.

Thanks Hon - it really has been getting to me the longer it has gone on but all I can do is wait again. That combined with a couple of really bad nights has kept me wondering if I am falling backwards again but I have managed to do a few things this afternoon and despite feeling exhausted I am doing a little better. I hope tonight is an easy night and none of this 'stuff' re-surfaces again. I have my fur babies for cuddles and the house is relatively clean so that is helping. Tomorrow I really need to get to the pool so my thoughts and tiredness do not take over - it is just one of those bumps in the road that feels quite huge atm but I'll get through it @Faith-and-Hope

How has your day been?

The hard nights are probably tied to the lack of feedback too @Zoe7 ..... so yeah, build your successes in every other direction you can while you wait ..... because it is a given outcome ..... the issue at the moment is the timing.

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