Am Not Coping

Hi @Zoe7 ..... 👋💕

I might have missed you now for tonight. Dinner is done✅ I walked home ✅ making a card now ✅ then will go on with my drawing project cos I am excited to see it finished, and it will clear the way for essay-type assignments on the weekend that I need to make a start on.

Well done on resisting the doughnuts, as they have obviously been taking over .... lol

Still up Hon and will likely be for a while @Faith-and-Hope

I'm still up too @Zoe7 😛

You seem to have a good plan in your head about what you need to get done and when @Faith-and-Hope I have a plan for tomorrow but it depends very much on the weather. More gardening hopefully but not if it is too wet. Then over the weekend I should be able to mow the lawns with a couple of days of expected nicer weather to dry them out a bit.

Hi @oceangirl

Hi @Zoe7

I hope the weather suits you @Zoe7 ..... I love that you are back into your gardening.

I have been sorting out some stamps I bought for card-making. Getting organised and trying to keep all the art materials tidy. D3 was working in the art room today and she has produced a beautiful piece of artwork .... but left a trail of baby dragon mess as well .... sigh ..... I have tried to coax her into tidying as she goes, but it presses the oppositional / defiant button that has become easily triggered as a part of her mi ..... so I have to grit my teeth a little and keep modelling the right behaviour. Her room is going down when she is having a painful or miserable day, but then she is blitzing it back into order again more often ..... trying to get into the right swing of things, so I know she will do that with the art space too, eventually.

Hi @oceangirl .... 👋💕

Is that Milo ?

And I suspect you don't want to quash her creativity @Faith-and-Hope - sometimes we need to compromise to achieve both desired outcomes ...but having a shared space would also be frustrating when there is mess left behind.

I love being able to be back in the garden too Hon. I do however wish I had the strength and energy I used to have because I would be able to achieve so much more of what I want to get done. That is super frustrating at times and honestly makes me feel quite deflated too. But I am doing it bit by bit and that has to be enough for now.

Next is to get back into the painting. Everything is still ready to go - just can't seem to get into the right headspace for that. Maybe tomorrow!

I am the same @Zoe7, in terms of having projects ready to go, but not the will at the moment to start them. It will happen though ..... it’s all part of pacing ourselves and allowing that drift until the time is right and we are motivated to do it.

Totally know you get it Hon - I do think this whole work situation is getting to me more than I am prepared to acknowledge. I have tried to just get on with each day as it comes but so much is up in the air until I know what i happening with work. I have a feeling that they are not going to make it easy for me and that is the last thing I need @Faith-and-Hope Primarily now money is going to become an issue if I am not back relatively quickly. It won't be that I don't have anything at all but it would be nice to have some money coming in so I am feeling a little more secure again. I have budgetted for the next couple of months but it is a very tight squeeze from now until December without some money coming in. It is also stopping me going too much more forward with the garden as I don't want to over extend myself without that backup of money coming in. Just feeling a bit stuck really - been that kind of day.