Am Not Coping

Supposed to be nice here too so will be a good day to go plant shopping @Snowie I am actually looking forward to it so should be able to get myself up and motivted to go out. The earlier I get out the earlier I get home and get the plants in. I'll take Toby with me - he sits on the blanket in the trolley while I wheel him around. He really is a very well behaved puppy dog when we are out - it is just at home that he is super spoilt and gets his own way lol

Taking the kids out in the sun sounds like a nice day - we will both be taking our babies out it seems

Toby is currently laying on his back sound asleep having puppy dreams - he is making little barky sounds in his sleep lol Does Izzy do that too?

That sounds like a nice day @Zoe7. Hehe, I can imagine Toby in a trolley getting wheeled around bunnings. I think he might be spoilt wherever he goes, not just at home!

Izzy is outside barking at the dog next door. It is a big dog so she barks at it then runs away scared! Very funny to see. Izzy does make little sounds in her sleep like she is dreaming, it is very cute when they do that.

He is 100% spoilt wherever he goes and because he is so cute he gets lots of pats. He is a real people dog - loves everyone and would happily go with anyone but I know he also would not like being away from me for long. He does love my sister and that is a good thing because if anything ever happened to me I know he would be well looked after by her. But I also know he is happiest when he is with me and vice versa. I am so lucky to have him. I know you get similar feelings with Izzy - they certainly brighten our days!

@Snowie You seem to be a little better the last couple of days - that is great to see. Do you think the meds are finally beginning to help?

@Snowie@Zoe7@Shaz51@frog@Faith-and-Hope

I am sending you all the love in the world 🌍❤️

You are amazing 😉

They certainly do brighten our days @Zoe7 and help us through some of the harder times.

I am better the last couple of days. Not sure if it is the meds or what but the flashbacks have eased and things have become easier again. I know the flashbacks won't go completly but I am glad that they have become more managable.

Thank you @Nay69

Thanks @Nay69, you are amazing yourself. I think we all are to go through what we do.

I totally get that @Snowie My flashbacks have become less frequent and also more manageable when I do have them. I am sure it is a combination of the meds, getting more sleep and finding ways to deal with them better. It is still a long road ahead but I have more hope that I can get through the tougher times now than I have ever had. Part of that is the support on here too and me being able to reach out and ask for that support has become easier. You are a big part of why I feel like this now Hon

Awww thanks hun, could say the same about you too @Zoe7.

I am so glad for you that it is becoming more managable for you.

Time for this old girl to go to sleep. I hope you get some sweet dreams tonight Zoe, will speak soon hun.

Thank you too @Nay69 .... 💕

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Yes, made it to the library with D2 @Zoe7, then did art shopping with D3 ..... over-spent, but not really because the budget could take it ..... but mr. couldn’t. I know he is not well, but when I think of how much he spends on his C/S habit, then kicks up over art supplies because he doesn’t want us to “over-indulge” all at once ..... really ??? From the king of over-indulgence ??! The difference is that he can’t see it in himself because he is unwell .... but to walk on eggshells around his attitude all the time doesn’t demonstrate the boundary, and leaves the rest of us feeling invalidated .....

Still, the indulgent art supplies are here, and so am I, so we have found each other .... lol ......

I am copying journal ideas from others to learn better how it’s done, but I am drawing where they are stamping .... because I can.