Am Not Coping

That would be lovely for you @Zoe7 .....

I can see that the benefits of going back to work and getting financially stabilised are beginning to rest a little more easily with you amongst the rest of the picture .....

As with everything, there will be pros and cons, but the pros being visible is important to the balance of it all.

It is more for finances that I need to get back to work now Hon - I will need to balance a few things but I won't be able to approach the job as I have done in the past - it was literally my whole focus - now I need to think about my health as well as having time for myself and that is going to need to take priority. Instead of doing everything extra that I used to do I will see work as just a job and then be able to have interests outside of the work. I will need to continue with DBT as well so there will be one day a week where my focus is definitely not on work. I used to work all weekend and every night on things to do with the job - that will need to change otherwise I will end up right where I have been the last couple of years again and I know I won't survivie that again. It is going to take a lot of re-adjustments and a lot of support - I just hope that support is there - that is something that I am worried about but I will not know is it is until I go back to work.

In a simialr way to you - I need to approach this weighing up the pros and cons and finding ways to achieve want I want in a positive way and also finding ways to get around the cons @Faith-and-Hope I know I have the support of you here and that really helps me to stay focussed on what I want out of returning to work and being able to deal with it all

It’s that taking one baby step at a time @Zoe7 ..... and sometimes that baby step is a stand-alone self-nurturing thing ..... like just going to the pool and being there ,... in the moment .... and relaxing as you float around ..... and that is all it needs to be.

Another step might be to do some art ..... just for the sake of doing some art and enjoying being in that moment, without it needing to be anything else, and without trying to solve or resolve anything else ..... just some emotional time out.

❤️

If I can go to the pool on the way home a couple of nights a week at least then I can use that time to relax. I may be able to push it out to a few times when the days are a bit longer - then still have time when I get home to do things in daylights still @Faith-and-Hope

I know I can't do a lot around the house until most of my school stuff is back at school and that may not be until next year - hopefully I will know by the end of this year if I have a class of my own and be able to move stuff sooner rather than later. That will most likely depend on how I go when I go back. So many things are still up in the air until my GP and pdoc come back from their holidays - it is frustrating waiting but I can't do anything about it.

When I have more room at home I can set up an art space and that will give me more room and incentive to do some art/craft things for myself - rather than for school as I have done previously - I still have the Stepping Stone painitng to finish as well as my sister's painting!

They sound like good plans @Zoe7 ..... 💚

Dragons are all home .....

Goodmorning @Faith-and-Hope and everyone else passing through...

I didn't sleep well again - awake ealy but I am determined to get some things done today including getting to the chemist, the supermarket and then the pool. I would love to get the grass cut also but that might be pushing it too far.

Hope everyone has a little light in their day today

Morning @Zoe7 sounds like you’ve got a well planned day!! Good on you. It’s do hard when you don’t get enough sleep. I didn’t sleep well again. Waking up twice just thinking about things.

I’m up now having breakfast and getting ready fir work.

Hsbe a nice day. Chat later this arvo. ❤️

Hi 👋 to sll passing through.

I hope you can get through the day okay BB - it sucks when you wake up during the night I will be thinking of you today @BlueBay