Am Not Coping

Hope you’re resting up now @Zoe7 .....

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I had a sleep this afternoon @Faith-and-Hope until Cat woke me up wanting her dinner lol

How has your day at uni been? Fill me in - I want to know everything you made/drew/created

@Zoe7

I'm immensely proud of you hun. You have made a lot of progress since earlier in the year. I clearly remember that time. And you've handled today with dignity, transparency and professionalism. Yay for progress. I can see you are pleased with your progress too, and so you should be. What a fantastic day for you. That light us shining much brighter now. I know you still have some way to go, just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Huge, squishy hugs. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

I do credit a lot of that progress with finding the right meds and combinations/dosages of then @Sans911 but I do also know I have done a lot of work myself - I have taken on board all suggestions (including DBT lol) and pushed myself way out of my comfort zone in many, many ways. And yes there still is a long way to go but there is light at the end of the tunnel - geez a few months ago I couldn't even see the tunnel LOL - still lots of little baby steps to go but at least I am taking them.

Thank you for your squishy hugs and sending you some back 💜💜💜💜💜💜

From the time you arrived here on the forums @Zoe7, this day was somewhere in front of you, but felt like it was too hard to reach .....

You have done it 🎉

I know it’s Step 1 in this process of getting back to work, but what a milestone, what an achievement ❣️

It really rocks .....

Worked in ink today @Zoe7 .... just a jumble of kitchen-type stuff, but it was challenging .....

You know I am Not a watercolourist, but we were allowed to work back the final image with Conti crayons, so that made me much happier 🤗

Then it was the computer class .... we had a quiz and had to write artists statements for each other ..., that was “interesting” .... lol

I thought Thursday was computer class

I do remember your coffee painitngs tough @Faith-and-Hope and they were beautiful - and the watercolours you have dapple with have been also - so something else to continue to work on

Feeling a bit flat here tonight - think I am second-guessing myself a bit - can I actually do the job anymore, have I made the right decision to try to get back to work so soon, will I crash and burn again....so much in my head but I know I need to ride it out and let the feelings happen for me tonight - not easy but have no other choice.

Yeah @Zoe7 ..... the back-wash If self-doubt often happens. Try to just distract yourself and keep taking those small steps forward. It’s how you got to today, and you went into, and carried that meeting, with a quiet self-assurance that will become more familiar again as you continue to recover ...

Just keep swimming Hon .... it not tonight ..... tonight is for rest after your big day.

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Yeah I know that is the reality for me tonight @Faith-and-Hope but I did hold my own in the meeting and perhaps got more across than what I would have done previously. I also read the situation pretty well and realised myself that my Plan A was not going to work - that was a big thing for me also. I think I may need a little extra help tonight to talk through a few things - will keep my eye out for HC to be available - so if I disappear that will be why.

When is papier-mache day - or have you finished with that for now?

Papier-mâché day is tomorrow @Zoe7 ..... 😊

Step by steo Hon .... you said the Principal’s ears pricked up at the mention that you teach art. Let’s see whether that opens up a pathway.progressively.