Am Not Coping

Hugs @oceangirl

I'm sorry that things didnt go as planned today, but im glad you heard back. The day program sounds interesting, do you think it would be a helpful alternative and would it be close enough to home so that you can go home to Milo each night? Hope you're going ok tonight, look after you.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope I was getting organized to go down to Sydney. I was looking forward to seeing the people down in Sydney(the connects I have made), it is an amazing place. When you walk through the front door via front reception, their is a signage, dropped down from the ceiling, which reads "expect a miracle". It is when you walk through the front door,that you learn what courage and strength and healing is about, and the action needed to work the program, trust the process and follow the rules.

My friend is very supportive we meet doing the program in 2014, and we have stayed in touch and we do think very similar. She is a professional writer.

My specialist that wrote the referral for my admission phoned me today because I thought he had to make additions to my referral because he put no address for the Doctor in the referral and I am pretty sure medicare will not accept this, anyway by the time he got back to me, I had already got the knock back from Sydney. He was great hetalk through my options with me. I think he was concerned because he wanted to go in and see him straight away but I said I would be okay and I just needed time to process what was said to me.

I could phone and ask to speak to the program director and ask them to review their decision but my concern is that it may cause me further grief. I am not sure if my heart is in it. I know my specialist would phone them, he could speak to the specialist there, and she could explain to him what is happening and could also put forward my case to them. Your thoughts @Faith-and-Hope

Hi @Former-Member

I am glad I heard back today. I was not too bad this afternoon but I think it is catching up on me. I am a bit anxious tonight. I am anxious because I have early morning start and I want to cancel my lawns being done tomorrow morning at 7.30am it is too early for me. Its going take me out of my routine and atm I really need my sleep.

I am not sure about my day program but will do research about what I want to do. Thank you for your kind message and well wishes. It means a lot to me...

That sounds like the better way to go @oceangirl, if you think that you do need to go there, because your specialist knows you and can be the mediator and mentor you need in regard to this decision. If the answer is still that you ought to attend the day program instead, you still have someone walking along with you through all the decision-making while you are feeling so vulnerable.

Does that feel right to you ? Maybe chat with your specialist to get her feedback, and take it from there .....

I don't think their is any harm in trying @Faith-and-Hope. And I thought that would be the best way to go about it. I think with the specialist phoning it protects my vulnerability and he may be able to explain why I think going in there is more helpful than other treatment centres.

The day program would be locally and the other option is to be admitted somewhere else too. Even though I may not do inpatient stay there they did suggest me going into a hospital- here on the Coast or Brissie.

It sounds like you’re working out a plan @oceangirl ..... wtg 😊

How are you doing tonight @Zoe7 .... ?

I loved your post from earlier .... yes, realised from our safety introduction yesterday that fixative is not as gentle a substance as I thought, amongst other art materials.

Sounds like very positive feedback on the meds front there.

I am really tired tonight @Faith-and-Hope It has been a long day with all the running around I had to do earlier and I am really achy and my back is sore. I am hoping the meds kick in very soon because I want this day to be over - nothing has happened - just worn out today and feeling the effects of it tonight.

Yes fixative is dangerous in enclosed spaces, as are some spray adhesives - need to be extra careful with those too. There are a lot of chemicals in so many things commonly found in art studios that you need to be careful with but I am sure you are learning more about them in your course. I know a lot about those from my own personal use as well as what I can and can't use with kids - the list is extensive!

Thanks @MDT not feeling that way tonight but I know it is just that I am very tired - needing to get through tonight and tomorrow is another day

How are you going tonight?