Am Not Coping

Hi @utopia

I did get some sleep - actually made it to bed eventually and it was ok for most of the night. Did wake up really early this morning with 'one of those' dreams but it wasn't extremely bad and managed to settle and go back to sleep.

I have to go to school for a few minutes to drop in a key and give my Mum a jacket so am anxious about both going in there and driving there. I am going to take Toby with me (I usually do but REALLY need him by my side today).

It sounds like you have a nice relaxing day planned. I suspect when I return home I will be exhausted - it's only about a half hour drive each way but combined with the added stress of being back in 'that' area and being around people for a little while I know I will need to calm down and try to relax when I get home.

@Former-Member - have seen you floating around It must be Tuesday LOL - catch up with you later - don't think I'll be much fun today so don't expect 'cheeky zoe' to come out and give you guys any laughs.

Morning @utopia , @Zoe7, @Faith-and-Hope @Phoenix_Rising @Former-Member,

Yes very hot here today glad you are feeling a bit better from what I've read @utopia, hope you got to eat some tasty food !

Oh and I just had a read through your weekend @Zoe7 sounded tough but there were some nice supports given to yourself and others on the forum which was lovely!

I also think it's a good idea to not see your Psychologist if it's making you feel that way, it's great you have that ongoing support from your GP, she sounds amazing.

Friday feast was funny, totally understand about today 🙂 I hope you get to relax this afternoon and say hi to Toby + Cat from me !

Lunar

That's amazing @utopia ! I can talk about cheese as much as I like now 😉

Hi @utopia and @Former-Member I'm back from my little 'trip'. It wasn't too bad. Alot of anxiety driving there but ok at work. I did see a few people but didn't hang around much to chat - everyone I saw asked how I was and that was really awkward!

My response was simple - getting there but it's up and down.

Next question was then - will you be back soon - response: definitely not this term and maybe not until at least the middle of the year.

Then if any more questions were asked I excused myself and said I had to see the Principal.

I did see the Principal and of course she asked how I was doing. I was really honest and told her I wouldn't be back this term but that hadn't all been finalised yet because we were still waiting for the insurance stuff to go through. I also told her that I was doing ok until last week when I had a 'major setback'. Told her I had finally got an appointment with a psychiatrist and that I had to stop the sessions with the psychologist for now because it was too much. She understood - which was great. Also told her about me not sleeping and she was concerned of course but gets that we have to get the meds and other things right to help me out and that I won't be back until that is under control. She was also concerned about the money side of things and the pressure that has had on me. She is just going to continue with the current arrangements with the teacher that is on my class until she hears anything different from either me or the HR Manager that is dealing with my leave and then the return to work arrangements. This really did help to just re-affirm what she had already told me previously in that the most important thing is for me to get better and be well enough to return when I am ready to.

I think that just about covers it - another essay for you. I am really tired now - I think a bit from relief that it wasn't so bad going there and from the driving and having to talk to people. I avoided the kids - did see a few that came to the front office while I was there and had lots of hugs - had a bit of a cry on the way home because I really miss all the kids (and the work too).

@Former-Member if you are available sometime this afternoon for a chat that would be great. Let me know via a post or an email.