Am Not Coping

nothing much @Zoe7

i did all my house cleaning yesterday. so all i have to do is fold up cloths today and thats about it

what about yourself?

Okay here goes @Faith-and-Hope ...

Had my gp appointment on Monday morning (nearly missed it as I finally fell asleep on couch island). We discussed therapy moving forward. All of the organising is to be done between her and my pdoc - in other words - I do nothing but agree and turn up when it is organised. Neither of them want me going back to see my previous psychologist as they both think it would be too triggering for me (I do agree with that as much as I liked her!) The type of therapy they have discussed is a little tricky to find someone down here that firstly does it, secondly would 'fit' with me and thirdly is available. My pdoc does it herself but would not be able to start until possible Jan/Feb next year (which may be the case with someone else anyway). I am leaning towards waiting as I don't really feel 'ready' to do anything right at this point anyway. But that is in my pdoc and GP's hands - so waiit and see!

I of course had to go to the chemist after my GP app to get my weekly meds. When I cam out there was a note on my windscreen - a car had hit the front on my car and driven off. The note was left by a witness. I rang them to find out exactly what had happened. Apparently it was an elderly guy who couldn't get into a parking spot and as he left he hit the front sid of my car. He basically only took paint off my car but apparently the side of his was pretty damaged. I decided not to report it - the poor guy would probably be shaken enough and a little sanding and paint will fix my car easily. I was a little upset to begin with until I found out the guy was rather elderly and there was so much damage to his car - he probably didn't even realise the full extent until he got home

So Monday was a huge day and was topped off 'nicely' that night by the side effects of the meds

Yesterday wasn't much better - my headache is still huge but I have been reluctant to take any more pain killers - am going to ask for some today though - can't function with the constant pain and nausea even though I feel a bit more like I want to!

@Bubbles3 I wish I could do some house cleaning I put some washing on last night but don't have the energy to peg it out - will have to wait until after my appointment today.

Previous message to F&H gives more info on my last couple of days

@Faith-and-Hope @Bubbles3 I actually spoke to someone last night on chat that I hadn't spoken to before - and that was a really big step for me.

If it wasn't for how physically unwell I still am I could probably actually do a few things around the house. The awful side effects of that last med certainly seem to have gone but still having side effects from the new med (which I new would happen like they did before when I was taking this med). The days seem to be a little more bearable right now - just back to the evenings and nights to deal with as usual

Yes @Faith-and-Hope there is a glimmer of hope but I am also not entirely convinced it will make any difference - wait and see!

If I can get back to taking Toby to the beach and actually sleep peacefully at night - that is all I am asking for!

GP in just over an hour @Bubbles3 Probably won't be able to do anything afterwards - the drive there and back is very tiring and I usually have to spend the rest of the day on couch island. Will have to wait and see - my headache is really bad and still nauseous (but not as bad so far as I have been the last couple of weeks).

What are your plans (after folding clothes lol)?