Am Not Coping

gizmo is saying hi to everyone

I'm back to 3 times a week at GP @Bubbles3 - need to make sure my blood pressure is stable (and everything else). I have been 'unlucky' enough to have some side effects from all the different changes in meds (some worse than others). The main concern this week is dizziness and fainting - that is wahat happened when I first started the current ones. I did have a couple of more serious 'falls' - one I hit my head and had a concussion also so staying on top of that is important. The main thing my pdoc and gp are concerned about (and me) is how we are going to get through the really tough times at night while the meds (hopefully) start to work - anxiety is through the roof already so have something to help with that too for now. I don't know how this is all going to go but what I do know is I couldn't keep going like I was because the only place I felt like I was really going was to not be around at all anymore!

Hi back to Gizmo @Bubbles3

thats not good @Zoe7

very unlucky to have side affects like that. lucky i didnt get any of that.

thats why its best to have a meds change in hopital but in saying that i had only been one my new med 2 days before they dicharged me, which i didnt think was right.

its a same we cant talk about what meds on the forum

Different meds have different effects for different people @Bubbles3 and I think not being able to talk about specific meds on the forum actually stops people from worrying if the meds they are on will affect them in the same way as others - it is a good thing! This is one are that I am totally with 'the guidelines' on - it is a matter of safety for ALL.

I won't go to hospital - my pdoc and GP know why and are doing everything they can to help me without that being an option. My 'procedures' on Tuesday (in hospital) had to be done and it was an extremely traumatic afternoon and night for me - more than I could even write about here (and I was only there for 5 hours!!!!)

Hi everybody. I am back ..... to an Inbox flooded with loving messages .... thank you so much .... @Zoe7 @Bubbles3 @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Former-Member @outlander @Former-Member @Former-Member @Teej

Feeling a bit shattered, so that was so lovely.

It was a first round appointment, so we were being dealt with as an "ordinary" couple with issues .... which is really hard when there is so much to say that can't be said. It feels devastating, but I have to keep walking forward into that feeling anyway, to be able to come out the other side of it.

I have a girlfriend with time off work today. She is going to meet me now for a coffee, so I will go and cry on her shoulder for a little while and try to recover a sense of peace to carry forward with until the next appointment.

WH is at home now and I really just want to be out of the house and away from him for a while.

I will be back later.

Hugs to everybody ..... especially you @Zoe7 for organising my "support party" here .... I am saving all the images now.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope I can see that you are around I have been thinking about you the whole time, silently sitting on your shoulder and sending you all my love and support. I will wait for you to post when you are ready and to continue to sit with you until then...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h9O5_Q-oLrs

We posted at the same time Hon @Faith-and-Hope

There is nothing I can say to help you right now except to let you know how much you mean to me and how much I wish I could take away your pain. I am so pleased you have a friend there for support - that eases my mind to know that you are not alone irl. My heart, my thoughts and above all my love are with you right now - and as little as that may help - it is all yours sweetheart

Everything was 'normal' @Pepsimax Specislist pretty much said it is something I am going to have to 'put up with' which was extremely hard to hear. Stress has been put down to the main cause of the increase in pain - as well as my inability to do anything to relieve this. So we are back to the 'waiting game' - different meds - 'fix' the emotional turmoil and then hopefully be able to start doing little things again to start building up some strength. It is a vicious cycle and one that is so debilitating that I really can't cope with it most days. If this current change of meds doesn't start helping then that will pretty much be the end of the road - wait and see is all I have for now!