Listening to triggering music

@creative_writer hahahaha you little scamp!! I totally remember getting in trouble cos I was stealing coins from mum's purse when I was super little 🤣

lol my toes are often wiggling along even when I'm having a power down. It does still seem to help, even if it is just giving my brain reprieve from sensory stimuli! I've always done weird stuff in bed, like scooching down whilst lying on my tummy, and then kinda kicking off the end of the bed a teensy bit, repeatedly, so my whole body is just...wigglin' along 😅

I reckon I will never be able to share a bed long-term. I'm too sensitive to other people's sounds and movements!! Always takes me so long to fall asleep whenever my partner stays over, and then they breathe really loud which keeps me up... sometimes I just head to the couch! I imagine the kind of partner you will hopefully (and they're HIGH hopes lemme tell ya) find one day will be understanding and not be the sort who needs to adhere to the social norms, i.e. they won't take it personally or as a rejection if you tell em you need to sleep alone!

You been able to do some movement or exercise today? Could very much help to regulate the restlessness!

@creative_writer whenever I get stuck in rumination or future-worry, I find it suuuuper helpful to kinda... escape into my imagination. You ever do that? It's also a great way to find inspiration for writing and stuff too.

Sounds like in order to survive some painful years of not having your emotional needs met has resulted in having to convince yourself you're better off alone @creative_writer. But now that way of coping is no longer serving you, and rewiring those kinds of neural pathways is always extra tricky - since our brains also believe that what is familiar is also what is safe, and because a big part of your brain will likely be like UHH HELLO? THIS IS HOW WE SURVIVED. DO YOU WANT US TO DIE? And you kinda gotta be like 'thanks for keeping me safe as a kid but we won't actually die, promise!!' Ahhh gentle reparenting is tough hey!

Give it a go!! What kinda world would you go to if you could go anywhere? Magical or nah?

I met a lot of my friends at music festivals @creative_writer - the psytrance ones in particular seem to attract a LOT of ND folks lol. But they're definitely not a pleasant environment for everyone! But I guess what I'm getting at is that sometimes to find people who share our interests, we gotta go out and do those interests in the public sphere. Like, maybe there's a local writers club or book club you could take a poke at!

Ha, you and me both!! I follow my characters around through all sorts of adventures, typically throw them into the world of whatever media I'm obsessed with (been Arcane lately!). I think it's actually been soooo helpful for moments where my brain wants to ruminate, I'll actually pull myself up and think 'hmm no wait, where was my story up to' - basically it's comparmentalising practice!

@creative_writer aye, I didn't think it was an idea you'd jump at 😂

Mm, perhaps... but it is even harder to break out when one tells oneself that one is paralysed... Our thoughts can shape our reality, and if you are telling yourself this narrative, it is going to feel like the truth. Are you truly paralysed though? Or just working stuff out at your own pace?