Bead23Casual Contributor
Isolation
I'm 66,female. I am bi polar (on a mood stabiliser and anti-depressant); handle it pretty well and don't think that's the issue really. I live alone with dog and cat. A few months ago my son moved interstate. My sister lives interstate. I have no one here. I have never had many friends and now I'm down to one and, for a few reasons, I can't rely on her. I feel utterly alone. I like solitude. I like living alone but I think the isolation is really getting to me. I have little energy, feel anxious and hate going out. I avoid phone calls (although I speak to son and sister fairly frequently). My thoughts are often a bit dark and I have anxiety. I sleep a great deal. I know that I need psych help but I've bad experiences in the past. I feel powerless to do anything about this. I am so desperate that I'm considering going to a local church "coffee and chat" session tomorrow morning. I fear it will be a couple of old farts, like me, and they'll start with a prayer and then talk about recent surgeries. I might starting ranting. Or worse, collapse into tears. I think that I might go anyway but I'm worried about getting sucked into the religious trap, again. Your opinions?
