PatticakeContributor
Grief
I have been a bit wishy washy on where I post . I am not sure if I have posted this previously. I thank everyone who has supported me. The first 12 months after my husband died I was in a brain fog and shock. I guess that helps the brain to adjust. Just the past few days I have dipped right down for various reasons. One reason is September was a really difficult month which I brought up the energy to cope. My family was together for four of these occasions. First Fathers Day on the first. Anniversary of my husbands death on the 10th. His birth date on 16th. It was a number of years into our marriage that his parents told us that he was actually born on the 16th. His father mistakenly wrote the 17th. which was the day that he registered his Birthday. They were very upset and reluctant to tell us because they thought we may be upset. We didn’t worry at all but our family would wish him well on the 16th. after that. The 17th. was his traditional Birthday which we all got together to celebrate as that had been his day. It was also our Wedding Anniversary. I thought that somehow September let go it’s grip. Last weekend I felt tears flow freely and without thinking realised that we had watched 46 Grand Finals together and he wasn’t there to join in. We are not passionate followers but it was tradition. I now find myself in the past few days feeling worse than ever. I think September was just too much. It’s been five days in bed etc. Cancelled activities as too exhausted. I did message a dear friend who has helped just this evening.
