Hey @The-red-centaur ,
I can hear are you are angry and upset. I hear how much you are hurting.
Remember to look at your growth and progress, even if it seems to out of reach right now.
I know you said you have 'lost' your voice.
Maybe it's not about thinking about how to get through the day, but rather, getting through moment by moment?
We care. You mean a lot to the community here.
Are you able to reach out to your support workers?
Lifeline 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/
Lifeline Text Support 0477 131 114 https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-text/
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/
Remember Lifeline has a text service too.
If you feel unsafe at any time, please contact 000.